I somehow don't really think that H and I are piecing.
If we were why would he keep trying to communicate with OW when he knows I do not want him doing it.
He says it means nothing but if it does then why do it.
This past weekend was OW's B-day and of course my H had to make sure he told her happy B-day. Sad thing is he didn't remember his sisters and he saw her that day. He did tell me he told her and I feel it was only because he knew I would find out because she would call me or I would get a call from mystery person. I haven't said a word as I am trying to think about this before I talk to him as I feel this is going to be make or break things and I want my feeling in perspective and ni am not sure of what they are any more other than I am lonley and feel unloved.
He hasn't told me he loves me for months(since April) Iv'e said it a couple times and he has reponded but nothing initiated by him. Sex is still there.
He acts affectionate here and there and does little things for me but right now I feel like that is just to keep me from leaving as he doesn't want to be alone.
I feel second rate and unloved even with the bits of affection and I don't know what to even say any more.
he has been a lot more interested in his hunting but isn't including me at all. Told me last summer that we would go on a weekend trip alone after things slowed down but never did. I brought this up in the Spring and he said he did remember but yet nothing. He does ask me if I want to do things like go to the store with him or ice-cream or a quick dinner here or there but outside that nothing.
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
