dont want to go home

[Ms Jen]

I'm at work and don't want to go home. I'd be gone all the time if it were just the two of us but I can't do that bc of the kids. So.. we are both in the house, both in the bed, not touching, not talking, and I'm pretending to be upbeat and breezy, but not too available. Awkward? Just a little.

It's been prob 6 months since I posted last- I stupidly thought we were done then. No. His life sucks and our kids are worthless and it is all my fault. Still.

I don't want to go home.

Tell me again not to believe what I hear. Tell me again that I can detach and it's ok and even healthy to do so.

Please.

[cat04]

ms. jen,

It must be something in the water because i really need to hear the same things you are asking for. Been telling myself this stuff all day.

Hope things get better or someone posts something wise.

[WCW]

Had many of those days myself, I just didn't want to paint the smile or face the tension.

Change the dynamics of your interactions when you get home. Do your routine backwards.
Take it one hour or one minute at a time.
You're from TX? Cowgirl up?

[kara]

If he wants out, why isn't he out yet? Why take so long?

[trustingfaith]

I am having the same kind of day . . .

[Mach1]

Too late to join this ?

So many of us here had that kind of day yesterday....

I'm thinkin that as much as the Full Moon affects the crazies....

That lack-there-of affects the sane...

The water supply can't possibly be tainted coast-to-coast...

[cat04]

Ok not in the water supply. Personally Mach, I believe you are onto something. Right now there is a very powerful astrological configuration going on and it is affecting people differently.

Sorry to see that we are all having the blahs....

[Ms Jen]

Wow. Thanks for letting me know I'm not alone! Let's hope it's the moon or the stars or something like that, because that in time will change.

I saw this hostility from H last summer, and again in late Dec... his bday is in Aug and the holidays make him remember he has no family? [so he pushes the one he does have away?!]

He's always been a glass half empty kinda guy, and I've spent the last 20 years trying to make him smile. It's getting harder and harder and I'm tired. So his smile is now his responsibility. And mine is my own.