In the interests of projecting one sitch onto another, do you reckon your H is moving deeper into withdrawal, or coming out a little? You are seeing quite a bit of depression at the moment? Anything else currently jumping out?
My H is coming home for the first time in almost three weeks and its been so peaceful! Looking for signs we are almost through this, over to you!!!!!!!
I'm gonna try to do this in 15 or less since my soap is coming on and it only has 5 episodes left. Heck, I have TIVO so....
Jumping out at me, his back hurts, his head hurts, his neck hurts, he is fat, his sugar is low, he is hungry, he is not, he is tired. The front comes and goes, but it is getting harder for him to maintain it for long periods of time before he has to go off on his own. He is tired. But then sometimes he is so normal it is like the veil has lifted. It doesn't last either. Joking with me more, grumpier with me more, grumpier in general. So I don't know if you can project anything from that.
I do notice that as long as I don't say too much that he can perceive in any way as any sort of implication that he could help more, do more, or is making me unhappy, he is calmer. With me. Too bad my tongue doesn't always follow the rules. LOL. I do validate tons, appreciate a whole bunch, but there are just some things that have to be said.
The thing with looking for signs, personally, it leads to expectation (even little ones, then impatience). And regardless, there is no guarantee if the result with be a saved M. So I try to avoid that other than to see where I am. As much as I want him here helping with S and house, I do appreciate the calm that comes with him not here. He works roughly 15 hour days, six days a week for the last year or so. When we were younger, I hated that he was gone so long. I hated the long separations, but now they do bring calm and fun time for me. That is because I don't worry about when he is coming home anymore, if he will make it safely, (he will or he won't), what I did or didn't get accomplished while he was at work and was it enough or was he going to be upset because I was too tired to put away the laundry. Now, it is all about me and my crazy hectic schedule and I need to sleep too.
Whew! Looks like I'm done and still have a few minutes to spare. Miracles will never cease.
How are you doing?
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
Generally I am doing well. Have very sick toddler so been up two nights most of the night right now. H used to be very helpful in these situations when he came home, expecting none this time around, that's ok, but hence my thinking about whats happening.
Seeing more withdrawal /down time, but still upswings closer to old H. Damn hard stuff when its short cycles and sick toddlers. Stuffs up my plans to look hot hot, these late nights too!
I'm sitting her like a dolt crying over a television show. And I'm not even sad. Two minutes in and the tears rolled for an hour. Will probably be that way at 3 for the next 4 days. LOL.
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
Guiding Light. I have watched since I was four. They announced the cancellation back in April and having been moving towards the finale since. You know, it is the longest running show, actually started on radio. I am totally impressed with the way they are ending it. Sort of moving with a really important life lesson of unconditional love, which has sort of been a theme on the show the last couple of years anyway. I was watching today and just thinkng, maybe all of us, and our S's should be paying attention.
I would not have been crying at all except that, well, I've watched it for so long, and they brought back some old characters and that was a nice surprise.
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
H 51/W 43 Together 24yrs/Married 19yrs 2 kids- D18 & S16 "I want out" July 2008 "I want out" Dec 2008 "I want you out" Aug 2009 Still in house thru it all
Cool. Actually I did know they were there. I really want to go back and watch some of the really old ones. I know some of the stuff from the 80's is on youtube but really grainy quality.
So it was Nola and Bridget Reardon brought back yesterday for anyone who follows.
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
