I am so sorry for the pain you are going through. It just breaks my heart for you.
I agree with you, I don't think you are grasping at straws. I have read a lot of posts on here where people are divorce busting their way right through the divorce process. You have made it clear to her that you still want to work things out and given her something to think about.
I know you mentioned going to church, and maybe at this point it is just time to give it over to God. You can't make her want to be married and I know you are hurting, but you can show her that you are a good person and be her friend and see what happens.
I hope you will keep us posted. I will pray for you and your W that she see's what she will be missing.
Well I finally got the chance to talk to her yesterday evening. I asked her to tell me what the reason was and she replied..."I just dont want to be married any more"
I asked for something a bit more specific and I also asked if there was any other guy. She said that there was no one else whatsoever and I really want to believe her.
She went on to tell me about how she has been going and hanging out with an old friend of hers that I know as well (she dated him for like 2 months in high school but broke it off because they were better friends than anything) she told me they went to an Astros game and hung out a few times "basically just having fun" she said. Apparently he just broke it off with his fiance not to long ago as well. She swears up and down that there is nothing between them and wont be but I cant help thinking...that was how me and her started out. She was dumped by a guy and she started hanging out with me more and more, one thing led to another...
I went to my lawyer for the first time today and felt weak, like I am a child. I was embarassed because as I was in the waiting room I broke down and cried, people were in there and the only thing I could do was turn my head into the corner and shake.
Why is it that when I pray the hardest, God seems to be on vacation?
M:29 W:26 M:3yrs Together:6yrs Seperated:6/22/09
Do not go gentle into that good night, Old age should burn and rave at close of day; Rage, rage against the dying of the light. --Dylan Thomas
Why is it that when I pray the hardest, God seems to be on vacation?
Well, thankfully God isn't on vacation, so maybe it is what you are praying about. Not to pry into your spiritual and private time with God, but are you praying that He will make your W love you more or for her to feel this way or that way or that she won't leave you? Things along those lines? If you haven't been in a very close R with God, then that is probably why you feel He's not listening. If you are His chid, then He does lisent.....however, I think He likes for us to learn to pray for certain things in a certain way.....and that's the kicker for us. I find myself giving God advise as to how He could fix a lot of thinngs for me! But He has a way of letting me know that it is His business to handle things the way He knows is best, and it is my part to trust on Him to do it.....and to get out of His way!
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
So true Sandi2, and also so hard to do. It takes a lot of faith and trust to just hand it over to God and know that he has a plan for your life that is better than anything you could have imagines. As hard as it is, you just have to pray that God will help to make that plan apparent to you.
I know I pray everyday that God will show me his plan and help me to stay out of the way and not do anything to interfere with his bigger plan. I would love a big billboard or something that says "Here's what I have in store for you" but it's not happening. Some days are easier than others for sure.
God will give you the strength to make it through this whatever happens....but you also have to let yourself brake down and feel sad, angry, whatever.
Hang in there, you are in my thought and prayers GG.
But He has a way of letting me know that it is His business to handle things the way He knows is best, and it is my part to trust on Him to do it.....and to get out of His way!