H left b/c of my depression: ne1 in same position?

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My H packed up and left me because of my depression.
we've been married for 2.5 years, been together for 4.
he cheated on me in the beginning of our relationship, he didnt tell me until after we got married because i forced him to tell me. it put me into a deep depression and i ended up kicking him out. but i missed him so much that i asked him to come back and he wouldnt so my depression got the better of me and i became suicidal and i ended up in the hospital for a week and he decided to come back after finding out i was in the hospital. things were great when he came back to begin with and then things went back to the usual fighting etc etc. i became even more depressed and it just got worse. he asked me to please go get help and i desperately wanted to but i didnt have any insurance or money to be able to pay for it. i was a fool not to go get help and after 2 years of it, he couldnt take it anymore and packed up and left me. im now in counseling, taking medication and working towards getting better. ive voiced this to him but he said that whats happened between us cant be fixed and we both have to move on. i know its hard to live with someone whos depressed but im working on it now..and i feel so cheated because i gave him a second chance after he cheated on me and he cant give me another chance? its just not fair. ive been working my butt off to try and get better and show him that but hes not taking any of it in. i know not everything can be fixed. i know what we went thru cant be fixed..but we can start fresh, without all the baggage. but he just wont accept it and its crushing me.

anyone else out there in the same situation at all? he loves me so much, he always tells me and thats why i have so much hope but it seems so hopeless cause he is so clear that he wants a divorce and says he wont change his mind..i would love to hear from anyone in the same or similar position and what theyve done or whats happened with them etc etc..thanks..