Dear LolaL thanks for stopping on my thread. i am very proud of myself you can tell...I had a hard time of it and it is all in the past and I am living free and it feels great. You will get here someday and when you do it will be awesome. I read you most recent posts and I am sorry for the loss of youur brother. I hopr that you moving will help greatly in your recovery process and that recovery is quicker and less painful for you. You are in my thoughts. ITSY
M54 H54 married 30 years Prostitues and Other women "100's" 10/7/2004 Prostitue/Junkie girlfriend 6/04-1/07? Left 1/5/05 returned 1/9/05 Asked h to leave 4/2005 Had to, prostitues OW 5/2005 not a prostitue Divorced 9/2006
I found the most beautiful apartment. It was situated on two man mad elakes and the interior was just lovely. And discovered the rent was much more than I could handle!!!
So back to the drawing board. I made an appointment with a real estate agent to find a rental within my price range, but event hat is really so much different than I am ued to. Inying to deal with his advice. But he does keep throwing my poor decision making in he past, as if I didnt alredy know it. In the meantime, I am taking crap from my father, who thilk to him. I have to find a constructive way to tell him that I know I have not made the best decisions, but the continuousve. uderstand his perspectinks I am perpetually fifteen. I know he means well, so I am trying to understand his perspective. But his reminders only make me feel worse and more like a failure.
Interviews went well, so I dont think I am going to have a problem finding a job. I go back out in about 10 days, so I am hoping everything will be firmed up at that point. This is the best move for me, but I am still scared and hope that I can start over without too many problems!
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Lola, I am so impressed with how far you have come and how you have made some really difficult and I am sure scary, decisions for the next part of your journey.
I hope that you can find a nice apartment soon and I am sure you will be getting a job shortly.
Hang in there. I really believe that everything happens for a reason.
Lola, Hate to tell you this, but TWC is swamped right now. Took them over two months to get back to me. Hope it's quicker for you!
I think the stuff with your dad is inevitable. Sounds like you're handling it well. Keep it up!
Me: 30 W: 28 T 8, M 6 S: 7-27-2007 W filed (again) 3-2011 Served 8-2011 Responded, now dark "I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear" MLK
It has been tough. I have to now go back to El Paso for two weeks, and then I will come out here for good in two weeks. I have to come out w/o D13...I will need to stay with Dad for about six weeks. I am going to miss her so much, but I need to be able to get on my feet. This leaves her with XH, which is not bad, but I wanted things to move faster. There goes my lack of patience...NOT one of my virtues.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I know in the long run that letting D13 stay here will be the best thing. I need to set up house, and she will not really get any attention while I am doing that, so it is better that she stays with her dad.
But I still hate it.
A few weeks ago, the stupid German sent me a text saying D13's report card was in. I told him to mail it to me at my father's house. He didn't. Figures....I need this to get her registered in school. So I sent him a text asking if it would just be easier for me to meet him somewhere to pick it up. Apparently he wants to drop it off to me. I told him that I would rather meet with him in a public place.
I don't get it...why he hell would he want to know where I am?
BTW...still have not heard back on meeting. Maybe he is just trying to piss me off.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
