Hey, all (mostly Sandi)! I'm checking in just to say that I'm doing great. I really am! Sandi, I got a 2nd notice this morning that you were looking for me, so, I thought I'd post a quick update.
Not much happening on the D front since the day at the attorney's office. H has moved in with OW and the kids spent about a week there while I was travelling for a run (in Nashville) and a business trip last week. They talk about it as things come up...like when we went to rent a movie and they told me they already had that one at OW's house. And, when we were watching tv and they told me that were going to be going out in the boat again at OW's house. They don't call the place, Dad's. They refer to it as OW's. I don't know what that means.
I'm not sure how much she helps care for them. I don't know if it matters. She doesn't strike me as someone who's been around a lot of kids, so, I'm guessing most of the caretaking is still done by him. I do know that neither of them has prayed for her yet when we say our prayers at night. Since they pray for all our family and list close friends by name, I'm guessing they don't count her as really close yet.
We had our first t-ball game on Saturday and it occurred to me that I might have to see her there. I talked to a friend on Saturday before the game, and friend said I should definitely prepare myself. I was panicked. My nature is to be friendly to everyone. But, how can I be friendly to her? She didn't show, and I've been praying that God will give me the strength to deal with it when she does.
S7 is angry at me when he comes home from spending extended periods with his dad. I've been patient and tried talking to him about it. He doesn't want to talk...or, more likely, he can't express himself. If it continues, I'll get some help with that. S4 still misses his daddy most nights at bed time.
On Saturday, H and I talked for the first time since the attorney day. He tried to joke with me a little. I guess I joked back a little. It was tough. But, I guess it will get easier.
I continue to pray that he'll find his way to a better place (and I'm praying that OW will as well).
Me? I'm great! I did a 1/2-marathon with some friends last weekend. It was a fun trip. Something I wouldn't have done as a married woman (was too busy being married to take a whole weekend with friends that way). Last week's work trip was good, and I came home feeling at least a little excited again about my job. That was good...I've been needing that for sure.
I've gotten to know a single, female neighbor better in the past few months, and I think she and I are going to be great friends. I still spend hours on the phone with friends...most of them from here. As we move through our own processes, different issues come up and we support each other through them...like the possibility of seeing OW at the ballgame. It's so great to be connected closely to such friends that know where I've been and where I am now...in fact, that's been invaluable. I also continue to have many opportunities to learn and grow my faith in God and His plans for my life. He's definitely placed some folks in my life that have challenged me in new ways and strengthened me immensely (that's the best outcome from my bad sitch).
I've got many, many fun things planned over the summer...including a divorce "party" of sorts with some friends when/if the D is ever final. Not to celebrate the divorce, but, to celebrate the marriage...kind of like I want my funeral to be! I've been working to remember the good parts of the marriage and not to focus wholly on the end of it. There were lots of good parts.
One of the coolest things I've done for me lately is to move my laundry room and convert the old one to a storage space for the kids riding toys. The best part about the redo was that I did some electrical work and cut a hole in the side of my house to vent the dryer!!!! Go, Amy!!! I had a little help with the work from some very good friends...but, they were far away and just answered questions over the phone. I'm gonna be just fine!!!! Next weekend I might add a room to the house...ya never know.
Alright, well, I've got to get back to work.
I'll try to post every once in a while to let you know that I'm okay...will that work, Sandi? But, you should assume from here on out that if I'm not posting, it's cause I'm doing great!!!!
Love you much!!!! Amy
Me 39 H 36 S 7 S 4 T 15 M 12 H out 8/1/08 OW confirmed 8/6/08 D final on 6/12/09...I'm doing good!
