Just know, God never gives you more than you can handle. And believe me I know how bad you are feeling. I was there. God and the help of all his angels right here on this forum got me this far. I dont see any light at the end of the tunnel Yet, but I am not afraid to take the long trip down it any more.
Why do we love our S's no matter what they do or how they act?? Because we love the way we are supposed to... Unconditionally. The same way God loves us.
You hang in there. We are all here for you.
Me 41 W 44 Together 7 years Married 6 Bomb Dec 2 08
It's been a rough week. Moved out and into a place 1/2 the size of my (pardon me) his house. But it's nice not having the constant reminders of him.
Unfortunately I do still have to see him and talk to him. I really wish I didn't . It's still so very hard. I cry after each encounter. I know in my head that I need to just move on but my heart wont follow.
I'm standing my ground and being strong. He asks how the move is going and how the apt is, and I tell him it's going great.
Does he really want to know? Why does he care? Does he care?
What really is hurting me right now is the fact that it only took 2 days after I moved out, and he is already repainting and redoing "our" bedroom. After years of waiting for him to do something to the house. Now he does it. It just hurts. It's beautiful.
This week is the first week of our shared custody. He will have the kids from Sun to Sun. I'm happy that he is spending more time with them, but I am worried that he won't be able to handle it. I guess I'll cross that bridge when and if we get to it.
Today, after bringing over the kids and getting some stuff I forgot. He brought the box out to my car. I told him to have a good time and to call me if he needed anything.
He hugged me and said "I miss them." I said, "They miss you too."
I left and cried all the way home. I miss him.
Me36 H35 T18/M12 S10/D8 Speech 11/08 Sep:11/08 Poss EA 6/08 H filed D Papers 2/13/09 My Story
Wow, this is hard. I know I've had my weekends without the kids but for some reason, knowing that they are going to be gone for a week, this is harder.
I know that they are going to be fine, but I really hope they give my H a hard time. lol I just want him to see how hard it really is to be a parent without any help (this was how it was when we were together) and maybe realize how horribly critical he was.
Well, a girl can dream can't she?
Me36 H35 T18/M12 S10/D8 Speech 11/08 Sep:11/08 Poss EA 6/08 H filed D Papers 2/13/09 My Story
"I just want him to see how hard it really is to be a parent without any help (this was how it was when we were together) and maybe realize how horribly critical he was."
Expect a way different result here.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
"I just want him to see how hard it really is to be a parent without any help (this was how it was when we were together) and maybe realize how horribly critical he was."
Expect a way different result here.
Just because I want to see it happen doesn't mean it's going to and I know that.
AND, if he does end up feeling that way he is much to proud to admit it. Go figure.......
Me36 H35 T18/M12 S10/D8 Speech 11/08 Sep:11/08 Poss EA 6/08 H filed D Papers 2/13/09 My Story
Why does he have to admit.. "defeat" to make you happy?
Now hang on there, I never said that I'd be happy to see or hear him admit defeat.
Originally Posted By: Forrest Gump
This.. all you are walking thru.. is a learning experience.
What can you learn from it?
What can help you grow?
This I know.............I've learned tons.
I'm just venting.
I've grown a lot over the past 3 months. It just amazes me how one thing can set me up to feel like I did the day of the speech. It doesn't last as long now though, and that is good.
Me36 H35 T18/M12 S10/D8 Speech 11/08 Sep:11/08 Poss EA 6/08 H filed D Papers 2/13/09 My Story
