This is very hard to do. NC> I can't understand how he just walked away. I just want my old H back. I want my BF and I can't get over the pain and the grief. I go about my day and do the things I need to but i have no joy. How do you make the decision to feel joy again? I am really just journaling my thoughts and how I feel. I have a strong faith in God and I feel as though He has asked me to step back and leave my H to Him. God wants me to have faith in Him and stop trying to fix things myself. The crazy thing about this MLC is just how different a person can become. I think that my heart will break sometimes and my dreams!! I have dreams that my H comes back holds me, and tells me he loves me. OH How I miss him making love to me! I think about finding someone to have sex with just to fill that need. Just a F buddy you know? I don't mean to be vulgar but this was a very important part of our relationship and I just miss it so much. What do others do about this? I hate this happening to my family. Who the hell is he now?? I am so stuck and need to GAL. Should I date? I feel like that would make me feel better and take away some pain. Just random thoughts from me. I am sad like every other day and just can't figure out what happened to my life. I went to a IC yesterday and she said that putting on the breaks is good idea. she said that she has seen a number of these guys want the wives to file so it takes the pressure off of them. She doesn't believe in MLC persay she thinks it is just all about OW. If OW was all that wouldn't my H want to be with her and marry her? No, this is more about his freedom from the life we started together which I represent. OW represents freedom and new life. He is afraid to stay with me and family because he will just grow old but doesn't he relise he is going to grow older anyway?
h 43 me 42 kids 16&14 seperated dec 08 mlc behavior since nov 05
Let him contact you first, unless it is something concerninig the kids or money. Good on the no r talk, one step at a time, take a deep breath. Do something for you.
m-54 w-44 children-4 bomb-sept 21 2007 t-21 m-20yrs bomb-sept 23 2007 divorced but not giving up hope, not yethttp://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubb...rue#post1224023
