Finding me......again

[Truelove]

Hi BND,

I am glad for you and your D9 that her appointment went well. Good luck with the blood results.

Keeping you in my thoughts. (((HUGS)))

[brandnewday]

I quit my job today.

So much to write but I am just not feeling up to it.

I don't feel relieved, I feel guilty.

And I don't know why.

Hmmmmmmmm

[CMNM]

Guilt is an odd response, given how you have felt about your job lately.

Guess I'll wait with others for the update.

Here's hoping this is just an end that was necessary for a wonderful new beginning!

[iluvme55]

Sorry to hear that work did not work out the way you hoped it would of but I am sure The Lord will provide something bigger and better....just have a question....does anyone know what happened to Hoosiermama....I know she was having big financial difficulties I pray that her and her daughter are ok...

[brandnewday]

I can't sleep.

I have anxiety and I still feel so guilty.

The guilt....

There is so much to do in that place each day, and there is nobody to do the job except me.

As much as I was unhappy, I am also old enough to know better, and I probably should have given a 2 week notice so that they could hire and train a new person.

Logically I can easily say that I have asked several others if they would like to learn how to do certain things, and to train them properly in the kitchen.

Unfortunately they didn't want to.

There are vendors to deal with, many other things that I did on a daily basis.

I know I wasn't treated fairly and I was totally underpaid.I was promised benefits and a raise, but that never happened.

I also know I should have grown a thicker skin and should not have allowed the daily BS and stupid stuff get to me.

I should't have allowed myself to get involved in anything other then business, and to do the job and ignore all of the other stuff.

I didn't have the support of my Boss's, as they had too many personal issues they were dealing with. They hired their kids and other family members and were constantly making excuses for their behavior.

Whenever I had to take care of an issue at work, they basically refused to get involved or chose to do it their way, which never got any results.

In today's economy I guess I should have stuck it out and waited until something else came along.

So....

I am unemployed.

My Husband is being supportive which helps. He told me yesterday that he had grown so sick and tired of hearing about my job over thepast few weeks that he wanted me to either quit or grow a thicker skin.

I can see where I have taken things far too personally, especially in this situation, and again, I have allowed other people to have too much head space and control in my life.

I didn't own the place, and I probably invested way too much of my time into running it and making sure that things were done properly.

Even now, at 2AM, I can't sleep because I am thinking about what will happen today when the deliveries arrive and nobody knows where to put things.

In some way I am feeling like I let them down, even though I logically know I need to stop thinking this way.

[trampledheart]

Don't worry so much, you're right it wasn't your business and since it's theirs, they'll be motivated to find a way... If they can't do something or it they need to know something, I'm sure they'll call you...

Trampledheart

[naej]

BND, (((())))

Thinking of you.