I cannot be ME with H being who he is now ....and after all I've been through, I do not want to revert back to who I was the last couple of years.
I like who I am now, I don't like who H is now.
I could have written that myself …
It’s a pretty sad realisation cos where do you go from here?
Do you continue to DB?
Confusing!
Nutty x
Be The Greener Grass.
Me 40 H 42 Son 11 Married 15 years. Left May 2006 after gambling spree I had EA August 2006 OW Aug 07 after another gambling spree (she will make me happy - stop me gambling!) I filed for divorce 9th April 2008.
I am raising my glass of(virtual)champagne to YOU and your new life. (It would be real bubbly cos you deserve the best but alas it is a school night) Now go live that life that the good Lord intended for you. Every blessing to you and your children. They may be impressed by a large bath now but you wait one day they will be bowled over by what a truly great mom they have and how proud they are of her.
And yes, I was out there living my life and felt a bit guilty leaving the boards for a while...but I think that in future I may be staying away more often ...you see, I feel like living again.
To all the wonderful friends I've made here, thank you. I won't be gone, but I won't be here as often anymore, I want to go and see the life I am going to have !
Love you all ! xxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Wow Cinders, Great for you! Enjoy life as 2009 is YOUR year. It must be a great feeling to feel free. I wish I could be there. It must be so much easier.
Cinders congratulations. Like you I'm finding the urge to come here less and less. In fact on my way home from work today I realised I hadn't been here for a few days. In the past this website was virtually never off my computer. I do still intend to visit but the support mechanism that was so vital in the early days is not so vital now as I have learned from everyone here how to cope and most importantly that I am worthy of a good life with or without H.
Me 43 XH 45 M 2.7.88 Divorce 7.10.09 Kids D20,S17 & D15
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11