Jeesh SMW, I tried to find my post to you from a month before he left out. I think you forgot what we discussed in those back and forth posts.
I apologize in advance for this, but I just have to ask. Why do you even wonder why he is emailing the kids all of a sudden? Why are you thinking about him and what he is feeling or thinking at all right now?
I thought you were pretty clear on what YOU needed to do for yourself while he was away. I thought you recognized that this was an opportunity for you to simply let go and focus on yourself and your kids and not worry about your R at all.
I know your tired, I get that this is hard on you, and I understand that you just want everything to be ok. It's not though, your allowing someone who is 1000's of miles away to interfere with your golden opportunity to figure out how to make your life work.
I still firmly believe that if you take this time to build your life without him while he is gone and make your world livable for you and your kids while he is gone, then when he comes back you will be in a much stronger position to deal with all of the aspects of your marriage. In other words, it is to hard to deal with all of the what if's of not knowing what will happen in your marriage when you are scared about how you will get along without him. So reverse fields, figure out how to get along without him and then you can look at your marriage openly and honestly without all of the fears and concerns that you currently allow to play a roll in how you look at things.
I hope you understand what I am getting at here? I just do not want to see you blow a golden opportunity to finally give yourself the upper hand and take back control of your own life.
Ian
this was pretty tame from Ian..but I thought I would offer you a bandaid.. and an alcohol swab.
You sure are a glutton for punishment or somethin'. Right in the thick of the holidays. Quite the hospitable gal.
Well I will be kind and not trash the place. Lets see, need to pick up my drag attire from cleaners & ..just gotta plug in them GPS coordinates .... LOL
and an alcohol swab.