Oh, I never really had any intention on pursuing a R outside of my M. It was just a nice ego boost. A little primer before I get out and hit the game again if need be.
Much hasn't changed yet tonight. She should've been home 30 minutes ago from work if she went straight home.
MC...I've missed you!!! Sounds like things are heating up at your place in more ways than one!!! I agree with max about the girls. Stay away for now. Besides, when you are ready, I'm thinking you should go for substance. I know a lot of "about to be divorced" women approaching 40 who would make great companions. And, some of them, will be living in your new neighborhood. Of course I'm not one of them...might have been till I read about the UGA thing. I can't be in a mixed relationship. Although, if Tuberville can't turn my tigers around, I may be shopping for another team soon!!! Then we could talk!!!
How are you? Do you feel okay about the potential of the filing?
Just keep hanging in there. I'm rooting for you and the kids all the way!
Love to you! Amy
Me 39 H 36 S 7 S 4 T 15 M 12 H out 8/1/08 OW confirmed 8/6/08 D final on 6/12/09...I'm doing good!
We could get one of those front license plates that says "House Divided". FWIW, I like Auburn a heckuva lot better than "Bama."
BTW, I lived in Dothan for a couple of years; so I know that Bama/Auburn is a State Holiday.
As far as how I feel. I feel good about being D'd. I've discovered that I can be happy by myself and that I still have some appeal to the fairer sex. The ego boost is good; but really it's the feeling that I'm getting myself back again. I think I let myself get consumed into being a father/husband that I became controlling, for fear that I would lose being both of them. but what I have realized is that it was unattractive. Not that my W might not have done what she's done anyway; but I definitely needed to recover myself. I liken it to how the disease of alcoholism affects the whole family. Her crazy affected me and turned me into a different crazy. Now I'm escaping that and it feels good.
Not turning away from the M; but accepting the reality that I might have to. My only real fear at the moment is the unexpected, mainly of what she might do to get what she wants. but until I'm faced with it; I prepare for the worst and hope for the best.
Dont think your done yet with W. Might feel it after ego boost, but only short term. You want to be available , if a miracle occurs!
Besides kids are in for an even rougher ride. They need at least one parent focusing 100% attention on them. Watching for their fallout and there will be some. If you are chasing skirt , then no one is watching out for them and the consequences for them would be life altering. Keep them safe and secure for now. Plenty of time for other stuff when and IF the time comes.
