Woke up today feeling bad. I had to call into work. Maybe it was all the stress. I tried to sleep off and on this morning. My thoughts kept going back to the whole anniversary thing and where we were at five years ago.
W called this morning. Called her back later. Nothing important, just garage sale stuff. A car for SD17 W found. Did not know how she would pay for it. Not my problem. Pretty much a worthless conversation.
Then I had to go to my cousins wedding at 530. That was a little rough. He got married in a church with a preacher. Just tried to space out during the ceremony. Frankly, just wanted to get out of there. Hard to hold back the tears. SIL was matron of honor, W did not show. Was not sure if she would or not. Glad she did not.
Then at 700 I had another wedding I went to. A friend I have know since kindergarten. This one was outside with a judge. Did not really want to be there either. Rough at that one also.
I was going to go to my cousins reception. The flu or whatever it is could not do it. I think the emotional stress for today was enough anyway. They were having there reception at the same place me and my W used.
I got to go to work tomorrow. See what that brings and the next week. Life does have a way of kicking you when you are down.
A warrior does not give up on what he loves, he finds the love in what he does
yenk, that was so hard for me when curt was shot. I knew him so well, literally saw him buck naked back in the day lol, when he was dating my roomie. I always worry bout ya'll. secret k? I am not that big or strong either.
I did not know him personally. It is hard when a fellow brother is taken from us. I am not that big and strong either. I just have to fake it sometimes.
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A warrior does not give up on what he loves, he finds the love in what he does
Down a little this morning. Then decided to enjoy life again and get out of the misery.
Talked to D11 on the phone told her I had a surprise planned for fri. Time to take her out and do something. I usually only have her during the week, so not much to do with school the next day and homework.
As far as the W, not sure where she went last night. Her car was not there early this morning when I went through town. On the phone she said she was sick all day, more then likely a hangover. Really did not give it much thought, her life not mine.
Had to get out of the apartment after being stuck here yesterday. Went to a friends house, had supper some beer and a good conversation.
Heard this on the radio today at work. Kind of struck a cord with me. Good advice for anyone, need to have SD17 listen to it. Probably will not do her any good, but worth a try.
Yenko, I absolutely LOVE that song (and the group) -- and the words are OH SO TRUE! Actually, their entire CD is inspiring. It's definitely on my top 10 list, if not in the #1 spot.
For those not familiar with it -- Tomorrow by Sixx AM -- the chorus says it all...
Tomorrow You're gonna have to live with the things you say Tomorrow You'll have to cross bridges that you burned today Tomorrow... And everything you do, it's coming back for you You'll never outrun what waits for you Tomorrow.
hey bud, thanks for checkin on me. seems we both are in limboland. just know I am thinking and praying for you tonite. hugs
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
Yeah, doing good. Thanks for checking. I never thought things could get more absurd, but they do. Will post this last week when I have the time, I have been really busy lately. To much weird bs this week. IC tomorrow so I guess it will make it more interesting for the C. Take care.
hey friend, I second you on the absurd getting more! know I am thinkng about you!! hang in there hope today is better!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
