I thought as 2008 came to an end I'd drop by and fill you in on the past 3 months of my life.
September 29 is a day I wish we could relive. If only we could go back in time and change the course of that day. Of course I cannot take back a day and relive it like Bill Murrey did in Groundhog Day no matter how much I'd like to.
As you know and I won't rehash I then found out that H had left me for OW and now we know there was another OW but no one knows who she is/was so we cannot investigate that angle. We have since concluded that H was killed because of this 2nd woman (we believe her H paid for a hit but have no other proof than a psychic telling me what happened) I was very angry with him and I learned that this anger wasn't going to help me or D so I let it go and have forgiven him 100 times.
Fast forward to early November and I allowed a man whom I had known since about August to come into our lives. He never knew H but knows what happened. He has been so good to me and has shown me that he loves and values me in ways that I had forgotten.
As a result of DBing I have become a better person and I have grown so much over the past 10 months. I feel that this new relationship will be stronger because of all that I have learned from everyone of you. You have all been so kind and honest with me and I am indebted to each of you for everything.
With love, Jen
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
Thanks for the update. You really have been an inspiration to me and an example of how strong a woman can be.
Have a great new year!
Me 36 Husband 35 D5 S2 separated: 10/29/07-present Served divorce papers 1/22/09 "When the world gives out beneath your feet, it is time to learn how to fly."
I'm so glad to hear that you have been able to forgive H for what occured. You have also learned so much about yourself through all of these experiences. I'm sure it's bittersweet.
Wonderful news on the new R front. Enjoy!
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
((((Sigh)))) Oh Jen, you are so deserving of some good karma to come your way!!!! Happy New Year Darlin'!!!!!
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
