Update

[Livin4ME]

Hi everyone. I've been away for a while dealing with a bunch of stuff, but I thought I'd drop in and give an update.
I'm back in school. It's pretty intense, so I don't have much time for anything other than that and the kids. I should be done in another month and a half tho. So I'm pretty excited!
H is still home. I thought everything was fine and dandy. But last night I found out that he is still in contact with OW. I looked at our phone statement. He says they are friends. And he enjoys talking to her. I told him to find a new hobby. Told him that I thought when he came home and dismissed the divorce that it meant it was over between them. So I told him yet again, no contact. I later apologized for the way I behaved. I didn't handle it correctly. I didn't blow up, but I was very rude and should not have talked to him the way that I did.
And this morning, his work phone rang, I picked it up to take it to him and saw her number. I answered it and she hung up. I walked in the other room and tossed him the phone and informed him that she called and wasn't very happy when I answered. After calming down, I sat with him and told him that I needed no contact. I had started to trust him again. And in order for our relationship to work, there can't be any contact between them. If it continues, our relationship will stay exactly where it is right now. I want more than what we have now and I was under the impression that he did too.
So I've come to grips with the reality of the situation. It will never be over. This is going to continue. I am the one who has to end it. I'm going to finish my school and after that I will be filing. I wanted my M to work so much. I've GAL, I changed so much in my life as a person for myself that we do not want the same things in life anymore. I want a monogamous relationship. He does not. He enjoys drama, I want to be the furthest thing from it!!! I guess I wanna lead a very boring life, content with bettering myself thru schooling, doing things I enjoy, spending time with my children, my family and my friends. He has started ignoring his family yet again, hasn't spoken to his sister in weeks.
He is the classic definition of a narcisist. He has shown it over and over and over again. And he will never change.
I wish everyone luck with their relationships. I know some people will get thru their issues and go on to have very healthy relationships. Unfortunately, mine is not like that. I will still visit the boards from time to time because I believe there are some good people here with some awesome advice that can be taken not just in relationships but with life in general as well.
Good luck to all!!! I wish you the best!!!!

[Sugar and Spice]

(((C13))) Iam truly sorry that things have turned out this way for you. I really had hoped that things were working out. You are in my prayers....