Well, I went from ok to emotional in the time it takes to read this:
Originally Posted By: HTTE's W
Huh...that email made me a little sad. (sh#t, now I'm sitting at work with tears in my eyes. Crap.)
Reminded me of who I fell in love with. You're very easy to get along with. Thank you for being so understanding and such a good communicator. And for being so reasonable. And you're right, this won't be the last time we don't have a meeting of the minds with the kids so its good that we can communicate like this.
Damn...I don't know why this tuggs at me so. Probably because it hurts and makes me feel good at the same time. This morning I sent her an email about our schedule over the holidays, she responded and we each had thought different things were happening. I responded back to sort everything out.
Saddest thing of all is that I am fighting back the urge to tell her that I'm still that person or that I still love her something anything to express myself and my feelings.
I also wish I could drop everything and drive over to her work and give her a big hug and tell her that everything will be alright.
I'm not though...I'm going to let her have her own feelings while I awknoledge mine and let them be.
I am ok with myself I'll let her try to be ok with herself.
Last edited by HopefultotheEnd; 12/15/0810:46 PM.
Me:34 W:31 d's 5 & 10 M: 5 years, T: 8, Bomb1 3/8/08,#2:3/28/08 Asked 4 D:4/19/08, discovered PA 5/8/08,W moved out 6/30/08 W pregnant by OM: 2/17/08
W is coming over for diner tonight, She asked me if she could make us a big dinner for Christmas eve.
I'm not sure how I feel anymore about it. At first I was ok, but over the last weekend some real feelings of anger and resentment bubbled up. I really don't want anything to do with her at all at this point. But dinner will go on. I think some of the stress of the holidays was adding to my turmoil but I seem alright now.
W texts me as I'm out last night to pick up a roast for today. No problem...I do. It was a little wierd because her email said that she really really wanted to do it all herself. Also I admit I was a bit annoyed because I hadn't planned on going to the store and ended up spending 45 minutes finding one that was open at midnight last night.
So today I text her about the roast and she totally forgot about it...So I go throw it in the crock pot during my lunch. Still not sure how to feel...
Last edited by HopefultotheEnd; 12/24/0809:43 PM.
Me:34 W:31 d's 5 & 10 M: 5 years, T: 8, Bomb1 3/8/08,#2:3/28/08 Asked 4 D:4/19/08, discovered PA 5/8/08,W moved out 6/30/08 W pregnant by OM: 2/17/08
Christmas eve and morning went off without issue. Some wierd feelings on my part but nothing external. Kids had fun and We had a blast at my parents. I got W a little something but she did not. I didn't expect anything.
Happy Hanuchrismikwanzika...and New years too.
Me:34 W:31 d's 5 & 10 M: 5 years, T: 8, Bomb1 3/8/08,#2:3/28/08 Asked 4 D:4/19/08, discovered PA 5/8/08,W moved out 6/30/08 W pregnant by OM: 2/17/08
