LOL Beth! It wasn't directed specifically at fig! LOL
It was the whole conversation I was not awake enough for. When you have been consistently running on 5 hours or less of sleep a night, you have to be properly fortified with caffeine in order to react appropriately to a conversation like that. I think I need an extra cup! you guys have had a headstart.
SMW
M40/H36 T16/M14 4K B2/08 S4/08 current
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7
When you have been consistently running on 5 hours or less of sleep a night, you have to be properly fortified with caffeine in order to react appropriately to a conversation like that. I think I need an extra cup! you guys have had a headstart.
How do you think I arrived at "sick and twisted"?? It's because I'm only getting 4-5 hours a night and drinking caffiene and beers..and eating a high protien diet while trying to rip my abs out of my body..throw in batchiitt and you get "sick and twisted"
and Donna...honey, follow my threads and you may see/hear anything, but it's always exciting.
I wish I knew why I am only getting five hours sleep tops. Last night i went to bed at 2, turned the light off around 3, and was up by 7 this morning. That is about par for course. It is always like this when my H is deployed, but now I get to add all the other crap on top of it, too, making it that much harder.
As for a good stiff one-----Nevermind, I am not going there!
SMW
M40/H36 T16/M14 4K B2/08 S4/08 current
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7
My choice of words wasn't the best. I understand now and I hope that changes. I never had a husband who was deployed but I know what it is to have my world shattered and be unable to sleep for a full night. You are under a LOT of stress. I hope for your sake it gets better!
Perhaps your DB advice guy should have an advice column: Kernels of Truth.
I was thinking about the feeling of 'aloneness'. Perhaps its the flipside of 'living high drama', where everyday is a one-two punch. There's an ebb in the action and nothing to fight.
When all the turmoil was brewing you/we were learning ways to manage and grow through an impossible situation as best flawed beings can.
Most of us have children from infant to adult. We protect ourselves by fighting for the family, then fighting for the child. At some point it's a 'let go of the rope' moment and a strange sense of calm ensues.
The person you thought always had your back, doesn't. The person you inherently trusted, even if things were rocky, can't be. The person you thought you were changes. The armor you've worn, bulked up has changed. With each step toward health, one more sheath is removed.
The shine glows beneath the tarnish slowly polished off.
