In other words, Summer is now OVER! This has been an interesting summer for me...I will be glad to go back to work and have a semi-regular schedule. During the school year I spend 2 or 3 days a week teaching at an elementary school, and the rest of the time I work from home, teaching my graduate students and doing other consulting. The regular days of having to get up, shower and be at school in the morning really helps me with the rest of my week. Plus, I just get a smile on my face watching the kiddos in the halls. The teeny-tinies (Kindergarten and first grade) are so "in the moment" as they walk the halls. Some times they skip. Sometimes they run. I often observe them experimenting in the manner of John Cleese. I had a hard time this summer without that regularity to punctuate my schedule. It was difficult to muster the energy to drum up new business, or even take care of the business at hand. I spent one especially bad week on the couch...I believe that was after yet another disappointment in the job search department. I have started ADs...not sure yet if there is any progress. They tell me it will be about 3 weeks before I notice anything. My first week was really good, but that was external events, not internal ones.
I just came back from my favorite little vacation spot...a hot springs near here. I was gone for 3 days 2 nights. Usually that place just puts a big smile on my face the moment I arrive...but this time I was really having a hard time fully enjoying it...even tho it was quite enjoyable! I found myself getting inwardly irritated with the other guests. *sigh*
A friend did come up and join me for one day of my trip. We relaxed and did a little bit of plein air painting . She is one of my D buddies and part of our regular Thursday night Divorce group.
She pointed out the unrelenting toll of stress I have undergone since the D...including the D, work stress and disappointments, dating stress and disappointments, kids moving out, my school closing and the fight to keep it open, and on and on. It is true! So much has gone on and the fight is out of me. The wind is out of my sails.
I am hoping the ADs help me get back my get up and go. I have plenty to be happy about and plenty to do. Meetings start today, with one today and one Friday. Classes start next Wednesday. I have planning to do and plenty to keep me busy, if I just keep my nose to the grindstone!
I need to stay away from the couch and the remote. Luckily I have the wonder puppy to nudge me into action if all else fails.
SG
Survival Goddess "The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don't have any." -Alice Walker
The regularity of the schedule of Fall will bring some order to your life. You will feel more of a sense of purpose.
Myself, I have decided NOT to teach this year. First time in 35 years but it is the break I need. Of course, running the place is still a lot of work but it does not need to be scheduled. Of course that will make me lazy but I do have to do a certain amount each year. And with Ashley doing online college classes this year - there will be no schedule in this home AT ALL.
I hope you feel better soon. For now, enjoy snuggling with wonderpup. I had a good snuggle with Blu last night. All night. Does the heart good.
Glad you had time away and your friend came along too. Now, how are those peaches?
I had a hard time this summer without that regularity to punctuate my schedule.
I am with you an this one! If I could have gotten one very heavy old fella (dog) off the couch I might have been inclined to do the same. Now I am in panic mode cos holidays are nearly over, oh well I work better in crisis mode. Takes all sorts I guess. Lets hope Autumn is our season! Hpe meds kick in and you are unstopable.
A lot of what you said regarding your mood lately resonated with me. I've started a new book about depression and if it helps I'll let you know. The meds do take awhile and if they don't work after a month or so I'd look into switching.
Glad you'll be back to a normal schedule. It helps!!!
One fuzzy navel coming right up...but the peaches will have to come from someone else's tree, not mine! No peaches yet, just a tree with lots of potential.
I wonder if you will really be able to stay out of teaching? Won't you miss it after so many years?
Snuggling with the wonder pup is wonderful. We are going to Rally class tonight and he gets to be the star!
take care, SG
Survival Goddess "The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don't have any." -Alice Walker
Tho my library privileges are on hold for now because I lost 2 books! I thought I returned everything about a month ago but it turns out that 2 didn't turn up. I am frustrated because I have looked everywhere and I don't know where else to look. Under the bed and in the car...all the shelves...Hmmm?
Maybe there is a book poltergeist at my house?
SG
Survival Goddess "The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don't have any." -Alice Walker
Yes, SG, I have worried about that. In fact, I've been teaching dance since I was at 12 - first at the studio I danced at. By the time I was 16 I pretty much ran the place so at 17 I started my own place. That was 35 years ago!
I will still stay involved with the teaching. I will do some of the production numbers for the recital and perhaps a solo. I just don't want to have to go in every week. I HATE schedules!
