Just a quick update. I'm doing pretty good considering my H got married to OW only 3 months after our divorce was final.
I don't know if I have completely given up on him yet b/c I am having a hard time realizing that I will never see him again. I still feel like we were meant to be together.
I am doing my best to turn it over to God. He is in control & knows what is best.
I'm still very sad but I'm keeping busy.
True: I'm glad you are keeping busy & feeling some better. It is so sad that your H only contacts you or talks to you when he wants something. I think you are handling things very well!
BND: Thank you for checking in on me & sending me hugs, I sure do need them!
I want to thank everyone for your support thru all of this!!!
It is very sad. I was going thru an old computer & found pictures of us! It wasn't that long ago either & we were so happy.
I'm trying to turn it over to God. Part of me feels that this is not over yet. I'm trying not to dwell on it tho. We have a family picture that is still up of H & I & our 2 dogs (one that died several year ago). It's an 11 X 14 professional framed picture but I just printed off an 8 x 10 of my 2 dogs I have now, I'm going tomorrow to see if I can get a mat that I can put in that frame & take our family picture out for now. It may not look as good but it is something. Once I get a job I think I'm going to go have some pictures made of me & both dogs & that way I can have those up there without him.
I guess y'all can tell these dogs are my kids!! They sure have been here for me.
Thank you all for being so supportive! I sure do need it right now!!! I still just can't believe it!
Thank you for checking in on me! I'm trying. I'm not quite as sad as I have been. But I am going to take pictures down & stuff like that & get his things that he left put in the attic for now.
Journaling:
I had a dream last night & it was so real!!! I dreamed that H showed up at my door, he looked pitiful, he said he had made a terrible mistake & was so sorry for what he had done & how he had hurt me. He said the OW was crazy & he just got on a plane, left all his things & came back here. We talked & he told me all about how the OW was (I really don't remember what he said) but he just had to get away from her quickly. I asked was he going to get his things & he said he didn't want to go back there, not even to get his truck. I told him I would go with him if he wanted me to & he said he did.
That is about all I remember, I actually think I woke up about that time. Strange!!!
NLT I too had a dream about my h last night. I dreamt I had stopped at a neighbors that we both knew and there was h with this guy kneeling beside a table and praying. Now my h is not a praying man right now.
In my dream, I was resentful when I saw that because I tried and tried to get h to pray with me and then there he was praying with almost a complete stranger.
That was the end of the dream. Not sure if it means anything, but it was just so strange as if it happened in real life.
Wierd dream for you too. Hang in there!
Me 50 H 42 S 22 S 9 D 7 M 12 T 17 H moved out 8/2006 H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks H moved home 5/2011 for good
"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"
Yes both of us had weird dreams!! I don't now if they mean anything or not.
I got my hair trimmed today & then did some shopping, nothing much but I did get a picture frame to put the picture of my dogs in & take the one of my H, me & the dogs down. I've just got to do that right now. Maybe some day I'll be able to put it back up but right now it has to come down.
