What a wonderful weekend I had. Last week, I caught wind that indeed there was A/C on at H's father's house, so I told H at the VERY least he will be spending his weekends there. The peace was wonderful. Very wonderful. I slept 9 hours Friday night - straight - I normally sleep 4-5 broken hours a night.
H works all weekend so it was me and the ladies. We pooled, shopped, went for walks in the woods, just existed, together. It was great.
Talked with H about atty appt coming Tuesday. I know he has been working a ton (reg and OT), so I told him to let me know by Monday if he wasn't going to have his paperwork done and we can reschedule for the end of the week. He seemed ok.
Its SO good for me to have him gone more. SO good.
Both tots start school this week. Physically I am ready (school supplies, etc), but I am really going to miss them. Especially my D6, who I won't see except for breakfast Mon-Thurs. They are excitied though, so I am being excited with them.
Had to respond to my friends: *hope I remember everyone*
Beth-Yes, its the day to day expenses, the stuff that you really can't put on paper, that ends up draining people. I pray H sees that. About how 'bout this weather!??? WOW Next week looks like more of the same!
Yoyo-I don't know how you have done it without having your H pay a certain amount every month. Knowing what is coming (or even knowing that H will cover this that and the other bill) will help me sleep at night. But your H has never been 'that' way, I am sure at any point you could have contacted him for money if needed.
L- I sure hope your son can go to the college he wants. When my dad died while I was in highschool, my brother had to dramatically change his plans (go from college of his choice, to full ride somewhere else). He was upset at first, but settled in and was thankful for the decision.
Karen-Dairy prices are gonna kill us! Tots drink organic milk in our house, and they love cheese, yogurt and thinks like that. Seriously, can't I give 'em some pork rinds, they are cheaper!??
GF-My soul sister. I need to go check on you. And yes, we can do this.
Donna, thanks for the financial/support advice. I need some tax/financial questions answered, maybe I'll see if there is some free assistance available.
Sue, thinking about you!!!
GFI, I also wish I could just be swimming in money to share with others. I truly do.
Its SO good for me to have him gone more. SO good.
Both tots start school this week. Physically I am ready (school supplies, etc), but I am really going to miss them. Especially my D6, who I won't see except for breakfast Mon-Thurs. They are excitied though, so I am being excited with them.
I'm so glad you had a good weekend lwb!!! I know I always read about everyone posting how much they are dreading when their WAS is going to move out and I always think, honey, you are going to be so much happier and peaceful without all the stress & drama (and in my case yelling!). I usually have very happy days when H is not around, and the days he is here I come on griping & venting about it! Sorry bout that. I need to be more like you! Congrats on your Ds going to school this week!!!! How exciting!!! Karen
Had our last appt with mediator before we can file. We were actually going to walk to the courthouse today but ran out of time (both called into work early). We will file the paperwork within a week. Then probably 6 weeks til its final. Looks like I'll be on the market by October.
This is hitting me, but not in a horrible way. In a sad, resigned way. H and I had a weird talk in the car, comments back and forth, a few tears from both of us. He might be sad, but he isn't turning around. I think he has crazy expectations about our R post D (best of friends, basically dating). I told him he cannot be my 'everything' after D, nor can I be his.
I am kind of a shell today, walking around with the world going on around me. I am actually lucky to be in a 13 hour day at work, because I would rather be a shell at work than at home.
Babies start school tomorrow (D4 tomorrow, D6 Thursday). I have a 'quality time' date with D6 tomorrow morning. Going to pour myself into the kids, remind myself how lucky I am to have them. And how lucky I am that my H will remain a wonderful father, and seems that he will continue to care about me as well. I am very blessed we are basically at peace.
Sorry you are having a bad day. Somehow we always think something will change and the inevitable won't happen, but then nothing changes. And how you feel when it happens is different than how you anticipated feeling. You will get through this, and then your life will get better. You will be free to find love again. And you will find it, or it will find you. Your life will stabilize again. You will be in control again. And it will feel better.
