Thank you for accepting my apology. You have no idea how much it means to me.
Quote: In a bit I see my doc about the ADs. I admit I am not a typical down in the dumps depressive. I do feel worn out from 5 years of working VERY HARD on myself, my finances, my education and my family (not necessarily in that order) and when things converge all at the same time, it is overwhelming. It is sometimes hard to muster the energy needed to just get the basics done!
I have been feeling the exact same way lately and I can't figure it out. I have "survived" the D - and while there are normal ups and downs in my life I am okay.
BUT emotionally I am feeling irritable, cranky, reactive, and depressed - and am having a tough time doing very simple things. I feel like there is a void in my life - but I can't figure out how to fill it...
Okay - here it comes - so hard for me to admit... I think I need someone to take care of me for awhile... I just want to drop everything for a little while and let someone else carry things for awhile...
I don't know, please let me know if you figure this one out. It really has caught me off guard.
take care,
AG, I hope you're not offended that I started this thread for you. You seem to recognize that you're in need of help and even tho you've greatly irritated a LOT of peeps here, we are not the kind of people that would turn our backs on anyone.
With that said, it would go a long way if you apologized to "everyone" that you've offended on this forum.
Now, about you. Obviously, you're angry and you need to get in touch with the reason for it. It seems that when you're angry you strike out at everyone in an insulting manner. This is also something you need to recognize and deal with. Is it because it makes you feel superior? This is how it comes across.
AG, One more thing I'd like to mention. Have you ever been on ADs? The reason I'm asking is that I was thinking that at times you're happiness seems "forced." Kinda the "act as if" theory....
Thank you for starting this thread. I will view it as a thread as a venting forum for those that are deeply offended by my previous posts and future posts. That will prevent the hijack of other threads.
I will read the venting posts - however - will not respond to them b/c they rarely lead to constructive solution-oriented dialogue.
My current goal is to no longer start threads to discuss my own issues. After 5 years of using this forum to set and achieve my goals - it is time to move to real time processing in the real world.
I did post to SG and requested her input b/c her posts have been a constant source of inspiration and support to me.
Many thanks for your offer of help. Based on our history of interactions - I hope you understand that I am respectfully declining your offer of assistance. We simply lack the type of synergy that works for me.
