Well, when I first started on this website I prayed that I wouldn't ended up here. I had hoped I'd go from Newcomers to Piecing. Well, I expect I will only have a thread or two here before Divorced. Papers go in to the courts in just a few days.
Overall, I guess I'm in a good place. I am happy. I know I'll find love again. I know I'm a better person.
Good to "hear" you're still alive! Not much posting being done by you.. guess you must be doing a fantastic job of GALing!!! At least I hope that's the case.
I went camping by myself this weekend. I had intended to take my kids, but the stbx had them this weekend and I had my dates wrong. So, instead of wasting the reserved campground I went myself.
I did a lot of thinking, reading, a few hikes and that sort of stuff. It was peaceful. Very relaxing and the weather was perfect.
It was one of the first times in my recent life that I could be alone in my head and it was a good feeling. I feel that my life is starting to make sense. I have a purpose, a goal and a few ideas on how to make it all work.
Yes, that is GAL. You sound so good. I am so glad, I was starting to worry when I didn't hear from you. I now think it is the opposite, when we get our lives in order we will probably have less frequent posts (like John 210!).
So, I was talking to my stbx last night and it struck me hard just how different this woman is than the one from even just a year ago. It's hard to explain to you all without going into details, but suffice it to say that she is making comments and doing things I've never seen before now. They aren't necessarily bad or mean, just completely different than she used to say and do. I think "Nick" has really had an effect on her more than I thought. I think she is picking up a lot of these new behaviors from him (otherwise I don't know where).
Last night when I was talking to my older son he looked at me and said "We are glad you are home. It was boring without you." It made me smile. Unfortunately the stbx heard it and didn't smile.
Nice to catch up with you. I miss your posts and your encouragement. You and a few others were there in my darkest hours and I will NEVER forget that. Our sitches were similar and sadly they are different today. There are still daily hurdles we all need to avoid regardless of where we are. For what it is worth I think you are doing great. I thought you were always doing great regardless of what was being thrown at you. Don't worry so much about your STBX's reactions....
J210
PS we all change...some for the worse (maybe STBX) some for the better.
