I don't want to survive, I want to live

[Committed2Him]

I like my home the way it is now, I have peace, wished things would've work out, but I have peace.

Same here. I do have a couple of friends dealing with contentious situations and on most days, I think about how simple my life is and how nice that really is.

[cat03]

hey zumba sista))))))))))))))))

[cat03]

hello my people!~~!!!\

back from the beach with a nice tan and well rested it was so nice being with my family! I didnt' miss stbx on our first beach trip without him, too busy chatting/eating away with my wonderful cousins and their kids, it was awesome!

And amazingly enough, not having the kids and all stbx didn't move anything out of my house, grrr, but he knows he has a few weeks, so I bet he'll leave it all to the end. He told me some bs about painting and why he couldn't bring the dog home, I know where he was, he still lies about it, whatever, I don't want to care, they can go to Timbuktu.

Getting kids ready for school, i'm a little po'd that the kids will have a different schedule coming home every week, what with the sitter and him picking them up different days, but hey, there are worse things.

Smooches to all))))))) hoped you all behaved in my absence

ps: I can't log on at work anymore, i'm sneaking in a post, but once I get DSL at home I'll be able to post more.

[BethM]

Hey cat!!!

I was just thinking of you and wondering where the heck you were.

Glad you had such a nice time at the beach. I get to go the week after Labor Day and I can hardly wait. I'm going to eat lobster and fried clams until I make myself sick! Plus it's nice being around people who make us laugh, know all of our faults, and love us anyway. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I can smell the salt air now!

Hurry up and get that dsl. You are missed.........

Love,
Bethie

[Aud31]

You sound GRRRRREAT! I'm glad you had a nice vacay.

[cat03]

hey all, some sad developments, stbx' mom was just diagnosed with cancer, she's already diagnosed with a terminal lung disease and barely gets around due to bad knees, I don't know how she is going to make it. In the past we used to just put up with one another for stbx and kids's sake, but during the ordeal of last year she was on my side and saddened by the stupidity of her son's behavior. She actually told me yesterday how I left a hole in the family when stbx separated from me.
I feel for her and told her I'd be there and will take her to her treatments when she needs it. Stbx was surprised and thanked me for being nice to her, I told him she had done nothing bad to me and that I'd want someone to be nice to my mom if that were to happen to her.

And, boy, stbx is in the hospital with, of all things, MRSA, long story short he's been there 4 days already and the dr explained him yesterday what it was all about (I took kids to see him) Sounded pretty scary, but hopefully it will be ok and they will be able to get rid of the infection. For a split second I felt something like "what goes around comes around" kinda feeling, but I'm ashamed of it now, no one deserves to have an infection like MRSA which is fatal in some cases. I know gf went to see him, bothered me for a bit but heck, not as much as before, I'm trying to put it inmy mind that they are getting married or something,so I can accept whatever comes later.
What with him buying his place away from her dont' know how they'll have a serious R, but it can't be any of my business anymore, sadly it makes me feel better when I "guess" he isnt' with her, old residue I guess.

Kids and I doing great, kids went to his place, got bored since he has not much ready yet but he's trying, some credit his way for that.

Smooches to all, still no internet at home, hopefully soon, take care all)))))

[cat03]

quick update, all is quiet in catland, no news is good news

Last night was the first night stbx took kids, it was quick and late, i had kids all weekend, he's not infectious anymore, (I hope!), d5 thinks she is going for a "sleepover" ,lol, went happily with him and the bunny he bought.

I just started to paint my room and s10s room, had tons to do, it felt as if the kids were downstairs or sleeping, i'm that used to them, lol, so it wasnt' as bad as I thought it'd be, i'm glad he pays attention to them and actually seemed glad to see them (he seldom shows excitement about things not pertaining himself).

My sweet friend call me about her H having an A, sobbing and asking me how I did it. Oh boy, did I remember how hard that was hearing her cry, that hurt the cuts though your heart, my poor sweet girl, we had a long talk, I hope things work out for her.

Anyways, hugs to all)))))))))))) work has been crazy and don't have much time to post as before when I'm home, and not coming here 5x per day has helped me a bit, I love all of my friends, but sometimes distance helps, take care everyone, will lurk from time to time.

[LoginName]

Cat, I found you. Sounds like you've had fun. Wishing you the best.

[RSmiles]

Hi Cat-

I'm glad to hear you're doing good right now! Thank you for being such a kind friend to me recently. And many thanks for recommending 'Spiritual D'. Do you still read through it and if so what are your favorite passages?

[cat03]

my little notebook is at home, I'll post what I wrote down so far

I prob should've bought it , lol, got it from the library and was sad to return it