Germ: I truly feel that my wife is facing demons with her lies/infidelity/homosexuality. I feel pity for her and know that she needs prayer right now to right her life. If I'm in pain over this, she must be hurting soo much to act the way that she is. Maybe I'm wierd. Maybe I'm too compassionate. My family doesn't understand why I'm not angry.
I pray for my W also, I think she is hurting also, You are not wierd, compassion is the perfect word, I try to be kind and compassionate to my W also. I don't show my anger, but look at my prior post I am angry, I just hold it inside of me. I know thats not healthy and I hope time will help me get over my anger, but on the outside, I just go about my business and appear as if nothing is wrong.
Journal: W called this morning, is going to take the kids to the pool, and I'm going to move all the kids into their new bedroom. She said she would move the bunk beds over to her apartment tomorrow, I told her I would help. (so I get to see W place tomorrow for the first time) She said she couldn't be over until late becasue she works late on Saturday night. I said I know don't worry about it, you know the kids and I won't be home from church until 11:00, ---- she said "I know; you are so righteous"
Her tone, indicated she wasn't giving me a compliment, more like she was annoyed that I reminded her that we go to church on Sunday, like she didn't already know this.
I said, you know I'm only trying to do what is right for the kids. Small talk and we said good bye.
M45 W41 M10 3/4 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 Date I'll forgive W for A = never
I hope you and the kids had a nice 4th of July. Over on this side of the river the fireworks were canceled and since my plans have changed, I just stayed home alone and watched TV. But it was nice to have some quiet "me" time.
How did your W like you going over to her apartment and the gifts you brought?
Sara
Me-31 H-38 M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs No kids Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06 Found out about OW 12-24-07 Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08 OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08 OW is back 4-19-08 H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08 Filed for divorce 6-5-08 Divorced 7-2-08
W was going to come over today and pick up the bunk-beds, I was going to help her (would see her place for the first time)
Oh !! guess what, after church, I had a voice mail, W cannot move beds today, she got too much going on, concert tonight, wants to take truck Monday night and she has someone thats going to help her move the beds.
I cannot wait to I get to the point where I don't have to deal with W any more other than when she wants the kids.
Also on the way to church, see a police officer, S5 says we got picked up by police officer, I find out that S5 and D6 were out on their bikes on walking/bike trail behind W apartment and they went off by themselves, police officer walked them back to apartment, D6 was telling S5 to be quiet, its a secret that W wanted to keep quiet.
M45 W41 M10 3/4 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 Date I'll forgive W for A = never
Jeff, it sounds like she still isn't responsible enough to watch her own kids. You need to find someone that you can count on to watch them because it isn't her. Sorry.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Telling the kids to keep secrets from Dad never sounds like a good thing. That really concerns me. I worry about your kiddos.
Me-31 H-38 M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs No kids Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06 Found out about OW 12-24-07 Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08 OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08 OW is back 4-19-08 H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08 Filed for divorce 6-5-08 Divorced 7-2-08
Thanks for checking in on me everyone, been very busy lately. I don't know if I should confront W about this, another example of how W could care less about her children. I told D6 that its ok to let mommy know that S5 told me about the secret.
I just have to get through summer and D and W will hardly ever see kids. maybe one night a week, if that fits into her schedule She will be the best mom for a day, buy them stuff, ice cream, movies, wow mom is great.
M45 W41 M10 3/4 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 Date I'll forgive W for A = never
