I hold a M as sacred (and believed that she did as well) and so to watch her make a mockery of it is so sickening.
I am so glad that I did not have to see her tonight. I thank God for that. I do not know that I will be comfortable ever seeing her again. And hearing her voice is not any better.
hey, guess you were starting another thread while I was trying to catch up.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
I'm not sure if I went back far enough, but I read about your W's comment on you not finding a place.
Here is where I think either of these things are happening.
either she is trying to find things against you so to sabatoge the reconciliation that was starting to happen (possibly her involvement with the ex has something to do with that, or not)
or she is still unable to communicate properly and therefore has misinterpreted you.
There is that period where the WAS starts initiating with us and starts on that path of reconciliation and I think that us LBS have to step out a bit to meet them. perhaps this really is about her feeling that it's all just the same and that you really didn't want to step up. ??? I really don't know. I really felt that things were going in the right direction for you.
What did you say when she made that comment? I didn't see that anywhere.
I was just looking at your sig again and seeing the 3 separations. Are you seeing any pattern? What are you doing during these times leading up to the separations? or when she starts breaking away. Do you think you could be subconsciously doing something different when things are starting to get better? Just trying to look from a point of view that can be controlled.
I do want you to release this bitterness towards your W. I know that it is still there and I don't blame you. You don't deserve going thru this. But you are here for a reason. God doesn't allow us to go thru pain without any good to come from it.
Here is a verse I found during my sitch.
1 Peter 5:6- Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
sorry, it takes me a long time to post sometimes. that happens when you have a 4 year old who won't go to sleep.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
