Ok, so what does it all mean? If the original dream wasn’t meant to be, then what am I supposed to do with my life? I once thought I had it all figured out. I had it all planed, the retirement home on a private lake, a business that would provide an income… I had the property bought and everything, I had my roots set deep and I was going to stay here forever. Many people say that things happen for a reason, if that’s true then why do I find myself in a situation where I could pack up and go almost anywhere practically overnight?
Life here is really starting to settle down, everything is going good and it would be easy to just relax and fall into a routine and get up every morning and go to work just to make ends meet and grow old. The weird part is that as things settle down I am becoming increasingly restless. Something just doesn’t feel right anymore, I have this weird feeling that I wasn’t meant to spend my entire life in this little town. I don’t know, I just think there is something out there waiting for me, something else I’m supposed to be doing, maybe even someone I’m supposed to be with, I just need to be alert and be ready to answer the door when opportunity knocks.
I just don’t like the waiting and uncertainty of it all.
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"Life may not be the party we hoped for... but while we are here we might as well dance!"
You know me, you ask that stuff and I'm gonna come back something deep (or a smart alec response :D)
My desire to serve my God after surviving alcoholism was very present. I just did not do a good job of creating a balance between that desire and my responsibilites to my family. What little time I was able to give was resented by my X so that desire within me was only acted upon for a short period and in spurts here and there. My X never really had a similar vision or desire. I differed to her wishes rather than get her to see the joy of serving.
Now, the desires of my heart are being acted upon and I experience great satisfaction and joy in this life I now lead.
Your calling, whatever it is awaiting you. You are no longer focused on surviving and healing but are ready to live and give of the gifts God has given you. Of course, you know I'm going to suggest that He wants you to have an intimate relationship with Him as well.
Pray, ask and seek and He has a way of revealing His desired direction for you in the most amazing ways.
Psalm 46 Says be still and know that I am God. In that great big open sky, I have a feeling He'll talk to you. In the meantime, I'll be praying all this is revealed to you, big things await you even though we don't know what they are. I promise
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For me, the waiting period has been a time of reflection, growing, searching God's character and His word. I look back at all that has transpired and now see why many of the things happened the way they have. I certainly don't know why everything happened the way it did but I Trust God's plan for me is a good one and so far, it's been pretty satisfying, in spite of the pain.
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