You're right. Sunshine does help! The clouds have finally parted and it's sunny here today. Still chilly though with only a high of 67 forecasted. It's been dark and rainy the last 2 days though so I'll take the little sunshine we're getting today even if it is chilly. I don't like to sweat anyway so I'll take cooler over hot anyday! Tomorrow the rain moves back in and it's supposed to stay cool all week. Typical spring around here....hot one day, cool and raining for the next several then it'll get hot again. I am planning to buy a bicycle soon to ride with D. Even with her training wheels on she gets going pretty fast...too fast for me to walk with her like I could last summer. It'll be more fun for her if I ride with her and I know the exercise will be good for me.
Me=31 H=36 D=4 H dropped bomb and moved out=4/17/08, living with his mother 50 minutes away from home and work.
Wow, a 27 year old!?? Where did you meet him then, does your H know of him at all? I want details!
So what happened with your H? I read Woogs thread, that hes done and you sound nearly done yourself...I was with my best mate and his kids all day and it was wierd, it was like they were my kids (they love me! bless them) and I thought.. I want a family. Not some depressed guy who cant even kiss my cheek, neverlone procreate with me. I'm not done, but I'm growing bored too.
So whats the B27 like then!?
Ali xxx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
The 27 year old is not serious of course. He saw me through facebook, he is friend of a friend. He says I look classy and stylish and hot and he wants to meet me for a date BUT he is currently in Italy (another LD relationship). It's not much but I am glad he is 27 because having my eyes open, I realised my taste is still the same. I like younger men ( ). (remember that friend of mine who told me once I should find a younger man who will terat me like a godess?)
Of course H doesn't know about it. There isn't much to know. Of course if this guy visits Athens and we meet I will let you know (he looks hot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)(I am out of batteries, can you tell? LOL!!)
I wonder why I sounded done to you. I am not done yet, I don't feel done yet.
I have this weird feeling of just being an observer of my own life. I am just standing there, things are happening around me in fast forward and I am still. I think I am "shutting down" for self preservation purposes. It doesn't sound healthy does it? I have a telephone apt with my C tonight. She talked with H today, I have no idea what they talked about, but I need to talk to her too. I feel scared. There, I said it! I feel scared, terrified. Don't know why but I do.
H stayed with us for 3-4 hours today. He left, had to be somewhere. We had lunch and played trivial pursuit with the kids. He shared a lot of info about his work with me AND his travel schedule. He will not take the kids next weekend and he is leaving the Friday after that. So, our kids won't see him for at least 1,5 months... (me neither). We were friendly but I didn't feel the man to woman connection again. It was weird. Of course I was not in a mood to flirt him. Who knows WTF goes on in his mind? I am tired, don't want to speculate anymore. Maybe that's what you "saw".
Love K
By the way, she is definitely "in" big time, I know it.
I was teasing about the 27 year old, I figured it wasnt serious! Its like me chatting to the hot guy at college, chatting is one thing, but anything else? NO WAY!
You said..I wonder why I sounded done to you. I am not done yet, I don't feel done yet.... becuase the way you sounded on Woogs thread, like you accepted being a single mum! I take it back then! I'm not done either, I think you just made me realise, I feel shut off too, self preservation as you say.
I'm sorry you are scared today...I'm guessing here (speculating) but maybe its wierd for him too to be away for 1 1/2 months. But maybe he has thought he will have to make a decision and he can use that time to think, to work out what he wants? Maybe his being distant today was part of that shutting down, withdrawing. Why do you think she is "in" big time? You mean, he cant give her up? (yet).
This is such a rollercoaster, one minute he is kissing the back of your neck, the next he is cool and dashing off again..I hope the C has something positive to say to you. Ali xxx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
I was teasing about the 27 year old, I figured it wasnt serious! Its like me chatting to the hot guy at college, chatting is one thing, but anything else? NO WAY!
Way!!!!!! I just don't have the chance. If I did... WAY all the WAY!!!!
becuase the way you sounded on Woogs thread, like you accepted being a single mum! I've been trying to get him to come to Greece Ali...
I'm sorry you are scared today...I'm guessing here (speculating) but maybe its wierd for him too to be away for 1 1/2 months. But maybe he has thought he will have to make a decision and he can use that time to think, to work out what he wants? Maybe his being distant today was part of that shutting down, withdrawing. Why do you think she is "in" big time? You mean, he cant give her up? (yet).
I don't know why, I feel it in my bones. No doubt about it!
This is such a rollercoaster, one minute he is kissing the back of your neck, the next he is cool and dashing off again..I hope the C has something positive to say to you.
I don't think she does, she would have called me by now...
don't worry. With the 27yr old or anyone like that it would be purely carnal. With you, we have another kind of R, spiritual... Doesn't it feel satisfying?
). (remember that friend of mine who told me once I should find a younger man who will terat me like a godess?)
