the common most stressed thing to have is patience but i don't have it in me. while my d and i have suffered for 8 months my h has had his whole life to himself, NOt me or my d - he has not gotten up in the middle of the night multitude of times (breast fed baby) finanical hardship, bills and turn off notices, not knowing where food is going to come from, no medical care for our daughter. all the while he has had his buddies to drink and do whatever with and then walk back into our lives and mess it all up again.
wants to ml to make another baby and is not even taking care of this one. maybe i'm running maybe thinking with my head instead of my heart, but i have endured way to much pain in my life to be subject to it again? walked back into workds and more broken empty promises, walked back into to do the fun easy things not the hard day to day stuff of being aparent or even friend.
i just want to pick up my d and my stuff and move out of state or atleast far away, or 99 miles within county - legal if he does legal court action.
he hasn't changed still the same things: d is not priority in his life, watching his friends work and playing soccer all more important.
Last edited by buenosuerte; 05/05/0804:23 AM.
Me 40 H 30 D19 previous marriage, d3 and s10months H walked out nov 1, 2009 Seperated ever since filed for d nov 2010, served h 12-22-10
it's been a while since i have posted. the past few days have not been good. honeymoon phase defintely wore off. i walked away from him tonight after he reached through my car window and hit me on my head. he has not changed at all. it is all about his friends first, his mother/father/sisters/brothers/soccer everything. he doesn't make time for me or his daughter and puts us last. he believes woman are to raise the kids keep them away from the fathers so the fathers can hang out with their friends, drink and party. that is not a life i want or one i want my daughter to be part of at all. her and i deserve so much more. i'm so confused, my heart says one thing and my mind tells me to do another. so i made it so i can not call him or text him, got rid of my phone, have no way of contacting him. i look back on the 40 days i was lrt and begged and pleaded for a chance with him and i feel i had it, i was willing but he wasn't, he only wanted d and me when he wants us and as soon as we are inconvient or he has a better offer, friends/casino/etc, he puts us to the side. now i have to try to be strong and stick to what my mind is telling me to do. that this is not going to change, i don't want my d to ever feel like she is second third forth or even last.
Me 40 H 30 D19 previous marriage, d3 and s10months H walked out nov 1, 2009 Seperated ever since filed for d nov 2010, served h 12-22-10
