Just logged on and realized that I was locked out of my 4th thread... here's number 5! Hope everyone is having an enjoyable weekend so far.
I took D2 up to see my Dad, his girlfriend, and their 2 dogs... later in the day my brother showed up with his D8 and girlfriend... so my D2 was overjoyed to be able to play with her older cousin. Overall it was a nice day with my family but we spent a lot of time outside enjoying the amazing weather so I'm pretty beat!
The only things noteworthy regarding H were that he called 3 times this morning before D2 and I headed out to see my Dad.. the first was just to shoot the sh#t.. the 2nd was to tell me what a delicious carnation breakfast he just had (since he's still on liquids only) and the 3rd was to tell me that he'd picked up some milk and that he'd bring it over on Sunday when he comes. I also noticed a text from him as I was leaving this morning.. the text was from yesterday evening and said "love you".
I liked that text!!! I also liked the sarcastic humour about how delicious his breakfast was! He SOOO sounds like the man I used to know... I'm still unsure as to the logistics of how we ended up where we did... how did it get so bad? I guess I can only focus on me... I know I wasn't happy leading up to the bomb... so that's where I'm doing the most work. I want to do things for me that make ME happy!
Well enough babbling.. just wanted to start a fresh thread! Not sure if I have the gumption to stay on and check on y'all tonight.. I may do it tomorrow instead as I am pretty tired!
Hugs to you all... and truly hoping you're having a wonderful weekend!
Me too, sign me up for at least a dozen bottles of that stuff.
Between W2G and Jenny F's strength potion. This could be a great thing!!
hugs bear
Me 42-Him 40 T20yrs Married 16yrs 2/06 H- "not sure if i want to be married anymore" 6/07 H-"I'm not happy" 9/07 Admits affair & OW 12/08 I moved out 12/09 still waiting for divorce
Hey W2G.. thats brilliant! Another text telling you he loves you! Funny, this texting business. Maybe the next step will be that he'll be able to SAY it and not send it in a text message, wouldnt that be amazing. You sound really good in yourself and your H is obvsiouly picking up on that and wanting to reach out to you more?
Ali xxx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
You guys are so cute.. You make it sound like I'm on cloud nine!! I must come across much happier than I am.
I'm doing alright.. I've settled back into living in the house with just D2... although H has come over nearly every day since he moved back to the apartment on Tuesday..
Realistically I know that my H still cares for me.. he has always said so.. (although his actions used to say otherwise)... more recently his actions do seem moreso in agreement with him having positive feelings (whether they be "caring" or "loving") but it doesn't change the fact that he struggles with whether he can commit to our commitment. This is the part that seems to make him so unhappy. He said today that he doesn't want to lose D2 and I... that a big part of him wants to come home.. but he doesn't know if he can do the long haul.. he said that during the worst part of our sitch.. he knew that he would never commit to anyone.. because, and I quote, "if I couldn't commit and make it work with the person that was the best thing that ever happened to me.. then I can't be committed to anyone." So I said, "you really think I'm the best thing that ever happened to you?".. and he said "without question, I would never be where I am or who I am without your guidance and support.. and I wouldn't have our amazing little girl".
Pretty heavy conversation huh?
Anyway, had a good day with D2 today.. got her a new pair of running shoes.. turns out I had her in a size too small.. Oops! Also treated her to lunch at the Rainforest Cafe.. neither she nor I had ever been there.. when the thunder and lightening came the the elephants started making noise my poor D2 got SOOO scared.. it was super cute!!! She adjusted but was never completely comfortable! It was nice for me.. I like when I'm there to see her experience stuff for the first time!
