Next Steps for W2G (4th Thread)

[W2G]

Hello Everyone,

Well, I've locked my previous thread. Can't believe that I'm on my 4th thread already.

Spent some time with H today. He came over for a couple of hours in the early afternoon.. then he left for a work meeting. then he came back for another hour and a half.. and left for something else work related.. which will then lead to hanging out with friends afterward. He said we'd see him on Monday.

So, how did I feel about our time together today. I have to admit that I'm a little disappointed in myself because although I tried not to.. I must have had expectations for today. After that email from yesterday.. and also knowing that today was an amazing "cosmic" day.. I think I was, unfortunately, hoping to really see some growth today. It was nowhere to be found. Don't get me wrong, we had a nice visit.. but it was the same as the nice visits prior to the email and on the days where important astrological stuff wasn't going on. I guess the only thing note worthy (aside from the fact that I finally got my Vanilla Latte.. woo hoo!) was that I got a really, really nice hug from H today. He held me good and tight.. and then gave a squeeze. It felt great.

That's it from me. I don't really expect anything more from my H for the remainder of this weekend.. except possibly a good night call from him to D2 tomorrow night.

((((Everyone))))
W2G

[W2G]

Here are all the threads that have lead me to my current thread.. thank you to all of you that have helped me get to the somewhat sane place I am in now (although I still have my moments )

W2G - 1st Thread
W2G - 2nd Thread
W2G - 3rd Thread

[addie]

W2G,
It sounds like you had a nice day together. I also set myself up for disappointments because I, too, have expectations although I tell myself I won't.
I would give anything to get a good and tight hug from my H.

Keep doing what you've been doing. He's noticing the changes in you.

[W2G]

Thanks Addie!

I really wish I/we could get to the place where we are actually able to detach.. then I could truly have no expectations. Because telling myself over and over again that I don't have any.. is really just me lying to myself. But, could that mean I'm actually DBing myself and acting as if??? Maybe then by lying to myself (aka acting as if) about this over and over again it will actually begin to happen! Now, that's what I call a positive spin!

Wanted to mention briefly that I was mistaken about my H not likely contacting me until tomorrow. He actually called tonight (after my above post). He thanked me for going out to dinner with him (I guess I didn't mention that above.. when he came back after his work meeting we all went out for dinner and then Starbucks.. we each had our own car and went our separate ways from there) and said he had a really nice time.

Nothing news worthy.. but it was a moment where he did something I wasn't expecting so I thought I'd acknowledge it on my thread.

Hugs to those reading,
W2G

[JenInVen]

Hi

I know that we sometime hope that things will get better fast and when they don't we are dissappointed. An important thing to point out though is things did NOT get worst. So look up and smile and keep doing what you are doing because he does notice!

Jen

[W2G]

Well that is a wonderfully positive spin.. Thank you Jen!!!

[stella_k]

then I could truly have no expectations. Because telling myself over and over again that I don't have any.. is really just me lying to myself. But, could that mean I'm actually DBing myself and acting as if??? Maybe then by lying to myself (aka acting as if) about this over and over again it will actually begin to happen!

Absolutely, (( W2G))!

I'm glad your H called!

[W2G]

Thanks Stella! By the way, you need a new thread girl!

Guess I should just do a tiny bit of journaling. Don't have much to discuss really.

Yesterday D2 and I went to visit my Dad and his gf.. they brought a new puppy home recently (to keep their Yorkie company). It's a little chihuahua.. and he is SOOO cute. D2 absolutely loved him. He's so little. Only 2.5 pounds. My daughter's reaction makes me almost want to run out and buy one for her.. but I won't! I'm definitely not ready for any more responsibility like that right now.

The visit was really nice. H asked me to say "hello" to them for him. I thought that was a positive. He still cares about my family and wants them to know by sending an acknowledgment.

When I got home I called my Mom. Wished her luck for her test today. I had thought it was an EKG.. She said no, it's an echo cardio gram.. and I guess an EKG is an electro cardio gram? I don't know if I got it right?? And if I did I don't know the difference.. She said that she didn't think they'd give her any results today. She'll have to wait for a followup appointment with her family doctor. I pray that if they find something.. that it's something that can easily be corrected with proper diet and exercise.

That's it from me. I'm doing laundry.. I'm going to vacuum and clean the floors today.. Feels odd not to be at work today.. but kind of feels like I'm just on vacation at the moment.

Take care and (((everyone))).
W2G

[phbear316]

Hi W2G

So glad you had a nice visit with your dad, gf and new puppy. Smart move on not running out to get a puppy, you are right you have enough to handle don't need a puppy thrown in. But just think you can always take D over to visit.

Hope you mom did well today. An Echocardiogram is like an ultrasound of the heart. Echo uses sound waves to show the images of the heart. An EKG electrocardiogram records the electrical impulses that the heart puts out. Echo will show the valves and chambers in your moms heart, md can look for blockages, or if there are any problems with the valves. Hope that helped.

So sounds like you are in spring cleaning mode. Don't try to do it all this week. LOL, remember to have a beer or wine with it. LOL

Sorry you expected more from h, but look at it this way, it was still all positive.

Well i need to head off to bed, having trouble sleeping as of late, maybe tonight i can get to sleep and stay asleep.

((hugs))
bear

[Wooglint]

W2G,

Just checking in. Sounds like you are doing well. I can't wait to do a little spring cleaning. Get my boat in the water and start enjoying the outside without fleece, wool or down.