Since August of 2004 I can remember that no matter how much I did for my husband it wasn't enough. He thought I should be able to go to the nursing home to see his mom, go out to dinner with him and then go to a school function for his son - all after a full days work. If I didn't H would become irritated. Not really angry but I knew I hadn't done things right. Over the next few years it became worse...so much so that even our young adult nieces noticed.
Then last August/September he started being nicer to me and talking with me more. Again, our nieces noticed.
For the last several weeks his e-mails to me have changed tone. Friendly, informative, wordy, and sometimes personal - his and mine - but no relationship talks. (No, take that back, he wants to have a part of a relationship talk but I'm not ready. Don't want to get hurt again - yet.) So much so that I have had to brag about the tone to my co-workers and my family. Three weeks ago tomorrow we saw the e-mails that had the "three faces of Eve" tone. Today, I got the word "sorry."
I figure we have at least another year of this and the OW but it's so nice to see a little bit of the old H again. For a while I'd see it about once every three months or so but now...after the one day of e-mails from "Eve" everything has been thumbs up.
I'm still waiting for "the other shoe to fall" but could it be that H is coming out of this crap?
I don't consider myself as having patience but people at work tell me that I have lots of patience. What I'm having a hard time with is saying too much too soon. Then he runs back into the tunnel SCARED. Is there a chance that I could not say enough and H would think that I quit caring about us?
I must admit that we are all having a good time watching him come out of his "shell." AND we all know that it's baby steps or two steps forward one step back.
