hey all, long time no see. was really busy last week/weekend, then got knocked hard by my first case of flu in 15 years. omg. forgot what a killer it is. and serves me right...I never get a flu shot, because, well, I haven't had the flu in 15 years, why bother? now I know why. ugh. thankfully I do get my kids the shot and so far (knock wood) they are all fine. hope they will stay that way.
had a rough few days and pretty much no help. I'm proud of myself in one way...I did ask h to come by after work an extra night to help with the kids. so he has been here to put them to bed/run them around for the last 3 nights. considering I've barely been out of bed during that time, that is a very good thing. I found something out about myself, though. as much progress as I think I've made, I still have a very hard time communicating things I need from h. I just don't want to ask. maybe that will take another year of therapy, who knows. but thought it was an interesting observation. someday I'd like to say, hey, I need you to take a day off of work. instead I still want him to just do it without me asking (I have a problem when its work related). I know, I know, wrong. at least I recognize it, though. something to work on. but I'm still proud that I did ask for him to come the extra night, and even asked him to get me a couple of things yesterday on his way over.
he's gone for business as of today so I'm on my own with the kids for the weekend, but I am up (for the most part) at last and sooo much better. just really really weak still. but getting better, and at least don't feel near death anymore.
not much else to report. hey, thought my observations above were damned good considering my current state.
hope everyone else is well. should be around tomorrow to check in.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
Not to freak you out but - according to the news the flu shot didn't help this year anyway, it's a different flu strain. Many people getting the flu also got the shot. Hope that your kids don't get it and especially that you continue to feel better.
(((Sally))))
Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7 Bomb 1 10/07/06 Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15 Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07 Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate 2/08 slowly improving 7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!) Current thread
If I had known M, I would have saved you some of my home made beef stew I made in the crock-pot Wednesday. I finished the last of it before coming to work tonight. Chicken soup is over-rated IMO.
Glad your feeling better. Spring is almost here, hang in there!
"It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare." -Mark Twain
Hey M! Hope ur feeling back to yourself thus morning. How's that snow treating you! Had a job interview yesterday out on 128....took me two hours to get home. Blech.
STBX and I still have those communication issues too. We beat around the bush on things all the time. I mean our comunication was broken for so long and its still an uncomfortable situation so I assume it will take a long time to fix...and probably never 100%. But as long as you can co-parent well together than that's all that counts. And frankly I think you guys are doing well in that department.
god, I am so weak. my arms are like spaghetti, and the chest congestion is really knocking me on my ass still. and omg, the snow. scott, we must have gotten a foot. and the thing is...I don't care. i have reached acceptance. acceptance that my world is covered in it. acceptance that I have no idea if/when we'll get dug out. acceptance that I sure as hell can't do anything about it right now. I'm already trying to figure out how to get S6 to school on monday, because I won't have myself dug out by then (the guy who has been plowing me didnt' come, they must have gone on vacation somewhere for feb break).
this is how sick I still am...I am not out there even trying. and you all know me well enough now to know that just is NOT me.
ahh, well, maybe tomorrow I can start making some headway. fingers crossed. if not, it will still be here monday. not sure when h gets back from vegas, but yep, I'll be asking him to help if he gets back in the next few days.
ugh.
scott, omg, 128 must have been a nightmare yesterday. I would have hoped some people would have stayed home/been away on vacation and such, but guessing no matter what, 128 would be a hike for you. still, good luck....was it an interesting job at least? am thinking about you.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
