No children to draw him back.....no what???

[NikB]

(((Pinkribbon)))

Some days are just tough to get through. Sounds like oyu did good. Glad you did your nails and updated your Myspace!

[jmw128]

That's a good start...I've even gone so far as to order things at fast food I never would have before. Get out of the rut and explore the world a bit...simple things...not life altering radical things or things that could be regretted for the rest of your life. Just simple different things like nails and update your myspace...great start. It really does help to do those simple things that are different than what you have done in the past. It helps creates new memories and not relive old...you know, "i remember the last time I ate this here with ...blah blah". It does not erase the old, just helps me get through the day. And by not constantly reliving the past it gets your PMA much higher. Makes you feel great and gives you the confidence to know you will be ok regardless. It actually gives me a very large amount of confidence that WAW will reconsider. But I know I can do it either way. Just prefer one option over the other I guess is simple way to put it.

[Pinkribbon]

Thanks for the words of encouragement guys. I really appreciate it. I just hope one day he will open the door and let us try again.

[MichelleLT]

Good job on the myspace. I had to do the same thing as I posted a bit of stuff on my profile as well when I felt like exposing him to the "world".

I'm glad to hear you got to go out. Sometimes it's just nice to be out with friends. It's much harder to dwell when you're with someone and having fun.

It's great to have that hope, I do as well. The hard part is not letting it create expectations and disappointment.

What color are your nails now?

[Pinkribbon]

Yes I made a few minor comments on Myspace about him leaving. So I took everything off about him even photos and changed my profile from married to in a realtionship. Technically we are not divorced so I didn't want to go there. I just cross my fingers he will look at it one day.

I am actually going to a party tonight and then tomorrow night some ladies are heading to a piano bar. Sounds like it could be fun. So my weekend is pretty booked. I wonder if I should write about it on myspace blog about going out? evil little wish now he would definately read it.

My nails are brick red. I bought the cutest little sneaks with brick red accents and little brick red straps. So my nails match. I felt kinda silly matching them but hey it was fun!

Wow nail polish spices up my day hahahahahahaha how sad is that

My hope is still there. I have 7 months until he can file. Anything can happen in 7 months!!!!!

[jmw128]

I just cross my fingers he will look at it one day...evil little wish now he would definately read it.

I think you'll have a great weekend if you just eliminate the word 'he' from it. Honestly, do you think a myspace blog going to change his tune? Be a magnet...worry about yourself not him. Draw him to you.

So my nails match. I felt kinda silly matching them but hey it was fun!

that's the spirit. Do somethig different. It's fun and exciting. Kind of like me ordering something different. Heck, went to work without a tie one day. Real rebel...lmao. Going to get haircut today, gonna tell em to make it look sexy...lmao. That could definitely be silly...rofl...

Wow nail polish spices up my day hahahahahahaha how sad is that

ummm not sad...great...find some more things that make you feel that good and spices up your day. All of a sudden, you have plate full of spicy days.

[MichelleLT]

I always love it when I have time to do a manicure or pedicure. Sounds like fun plans this weekend!

[jmw128]

Pinkribbon - just wanted to let you know on your thread that your excitement over your nails motivated me to get a somewhat different haircut today before I dropped off 5D. It's amazing how good you feel when you do something simple like that. I told the hairsylist, Karen, to make me look sexy. I felt like I looked so good she might attack any minute...lmao...of course no attack but good few minutes, in accordance with my plan.

btw, I mentioned her name b/c that is a 180 for me and something that might help. I struck up 3 meaningful conversations with strangers and names while I was at the haircut place. One woman dug out a book with lots of highlighting. Turned right to her bookmark, "how to restore a relationship" turns out I have that book "purpose driven life" but haven't read it yet. Blah blah...never would've had that conversation with her had I not just said something. When I left I even thanked her and told her how she inspired me. Sure wish I could talk to my wife the way I feel now. I am just so happy with the choices I am making. blah blah...your thread...hope the talk to strangers, in public, gives you an idea...oh and I gave the hairstylist a 30% tip, more 180's. They aren't that hard once you get started...ordered the new item at the restraunt...180 all day long...feels great...

Thanks so much for the idea and gl2u

[NikB]

I am so excited about your nail polish I can't even grin enough!

THOSE are the kinds of things to do right now, and enjoy.

I think it's way cool and fun that it matches your shoes.

I wonder if anyone will notice - my bet is they will. Seems like when I'd do something goofy like that and think it was "just me," someone would almost always notice and comment on it.

Have a great weekend, sounds like an excellent plan.

[Pinkribbon]

Evening guys! Thought I would pop in and tell you how it went last night. I had so much fun!!! It was a blast. After the party this friend and I ended up in some hole in the wall dive she goes to about once a week for a beer. I mean tiny place and where ever one knows everyone. I didn't get home until 2 and I have a slight hangover today. But I have not had so many men talk to me at one time. Must have been the nailpolish

I actually felt pretty darn good last night and all day today. I mean my husband constantly made me feel awful about the way I look. And I am far from being unattractive. But when your spouse doesn't want you then you feel cruddy. But anywho they want us to stop by Sunday afternoon because some band playing. So we are heading out again tomorrow afternoon. Some men she knows wanted to go riding tomorrow but I left my helmet at my husbands house and I don't really feel like calling and asking him for it so I just said no.

Oh yeaaaaaaa....ok I don't know if I mentioned because I can't remember if I did but my husband had been going to the doctor alot. I mean he has gone 11 times since we split up that I know of. Well I finally found out today what is wrong. A friend of mine that works on campus who knows my husband couldn't stand it anymore not knowing what is wrong with him so she sent him an email yesterday saying hi what's up and just checking to see how you are doing. She hasn't talked to him since months before we split.

He responded back he is doing ok (his exact words ok.) BUT then blah blah blah blah.

He told her that he has degenerating nerves in his right arm and he has been going to the dr about it. That he has lost 50% of the nerve use from his shoulder to his fingers. He has been going off campus for about a month to a specialist because they are going to have to do surgery on him.

She said he didn't ask how she was doing but just spelled it out what was wrong with him.

Just curious but if someone who you knew was your left behind spouses friend emailed would you tell them that? I mean if one of his friends emailed I would lie my butt off and act like I am hanging the moon and that stars and doing just awesome! I wonder if he didn't think she was going to tell me??

Also don't your nerves control the movement in your body? I have been sitting here thinking about him riding his motorcycle, out playing frisbee golf, partying at night, playing his game without me and building this all up in my head. And come to find out he can't do those things with 50% of his nerves gone. His is truly not riding his motorcyle with any other woman.

I know this is horrible but I don't feel sad for him. I did wonder why he hasn't told me because this is major. This is going to cost alot of money, time, therapy and pain. So I am sad he didn't think enough of me to let me know but not sad that it is happening to him.

Well guys I am going to get myself some aspirin and relax and not think about him tonight.
Take care!