Hi everyone. I have been off for a while, since not having a computer, but got one recently, so I wanted to update everyone and ask for help.
I cant link my last threads, but latest sitches are on Divorced, but not done...I guess I might belong there, but not actually D yet.
Anyway, in my last post, my W was dating a man 9 Y younger..didnt work out..then in Dec 07 dated a man 12 Y older..didnt work. Now, she has found a man her age (32), who she seems to think they have so much in common, its uncanny.
Now they have been seeing each other for 3 weeks now. I did my backsliding up until 2 weeks ago..I felt enough is enough for me. I said to myself, I have been S for nearly 2 years, and I cant let this go..why?
Her response has always been..you wouldnt want me the way I am now..I have found who I am and like it and you wouldnt. Now, she says she loves me as a friend, but thats all it will ever be. That hurts me because I know if she saw the man I am now, it would be different. But I could tell in her reactions she still harbors resentment and anger...maybe irrepairable scars that might never go away.
So, I have been GALing and all that...but I found that "comfort zone" that I really have no interest in dating..tried it but not much success coming my way. I am trying to move on..but still feel she will be back if I just be patient.
I know some on this board have been in the waiting for 18+ months on their WAS..maybe leaving the door open, but not willing to watch paint dry waiting..how do you get through the days? I am not saying it hurts anymore, I am just saying I feel that unconditional love for her that wont go away enough for me to 100% let go.
Is this wrong..or will I always have this feeling? She has made moving on look so easy, its ridiculous..while I cant seem to get dates that often. Of course I seem to find a woman can get a date easier than a man.
I know this is long, maybe might not even make sense..but any questions you have I can fill in the blanks.
