This is a poem I wrote for my H - haven't given it to him yet though.
I Feel....
I feel proud to wear the wedding ring you placed on my finger I feel a tingle when you kiss my neck I feel excited when I know you are on your way home
I feel butterflies when you look at me in a certain way I feel hope when we plan our future I feel happiness when we do things as a family
I feel warm inside when you make love to me I feel content when you hug me I feel relaxed when you stroke me feet
I feel like a child when you raise your voice at me I feel ashamed that I have failed sexually I feel angry that you don’t respect my feelings and flirt with others
But most of all I feel sad the last three feelings are what I feel the most.
Working at it.........
Me 37 H 41 1S 18 1D 13 Married for 17 years (together 20)
I wrote this (amongst others) when I was trying to figure out why things went tits up in my marriage...
The Trouble With Women And Maps.
"Turn left", you told me, and I probably turned right. "U-turn here!" So I went straight on at the lights. At the roundabout, you wanted me to go all the way round. But I likely swore, and yelled that the map was upside down.
"About two miles ahead, there'll be a T-junction". I didn't hear you clearly. I must have missed that instruction. "We're coming up to dual carriageway now", you said. But that one, too, just drifted right over my head.
One time you informed me, "there's a crossroads along here". But all that did was confuse the h*ll out of me. Soon after, you told me to watch my speed on this road. It just sounded to me like you were speaking in code.
It's clear to me now that you were giving me directions. To you and your heart. But I just couldn't follow them. All I did was drive in circles, around and around. (And I apologise for yelling that the map was upside down.)
But I'm listening now. I'm alert, lucid, and awake. I know when to speed up. I know when to brake. I know when to turn left. When to turn right. And now I'm sure I can find my way to your heart without that map (and at night).
Wow; those are really good, guys! Song lyrics -- others' and the stuff I write myself -- really helped me thru my toughest SSM and Infidelity times, too.
Here's one of mine:
After Awhile
In the youth of your days, together you’re one Bold and excited, it all seems fun In the morning of our years, you move together Happy and in love, there’s nothin’ you can’t weather In those heady early days, it call came so damned easy.
But
After awhile The heart grows colder After awhile You feel so much older And after awhile Your hope just fades away
After all Your dreams start dyin’ After more Of your nights spent cryin’ After all the time just slips away.
But you can’t go back, you can’t reconsider You can’t change the words that made us both so bitter You won’t take it back, even if you could and You won’t forgive, the sins and if you would I Might still feel that it’s just too damned late
Cuz
After awhile The heart grows colder After awhile You realize you’re older After awhile Your hope just fades away
After all Your dreams start dyin’ And after all this time I don’t even try cryin’ After all the time just slipped away. It all just faded away …
