Well that's my first lock. Read it here. Back to journaling...... She came home last night pretty much 3 sheets to the wind. I helped her to bed where the entire time she kept apologizing for being drunk I'm assuming. After that she soon passed out. This morning she called me to ask where a bed frame might be for a family friend. I asked how she was and she said ok but her answers where rather short. She called me back a short time later and I again asked if everything was ok. She said yes but she seems down. Not angry but not happy either. She doesn't have a hang over but I wonder if there might be some guilt attached. She hasn't said I'm sorry to me. Not sober anyways but I'm concerned that she might travel down that MLC road again because this is how it started the last time. She started hanging out with BGF. This could be my paranoia too. I didn't pursue or ask for any apologies nor did I bring up last nights events. I wont. She maybe seeing what my reaction too this will be too. In the past Id be upset and not speaking to her right now. No I'm not happy and I'm not sure what I'd say if she said she was going out tonight too but PMA and DB'n + prayers is helping.
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Gman Me 40 W 30 kids B 11 B 10 D 8 Been here off and on since 06. PA Confirmed Dec 08.. With God, anything is possible. Do or do not there is no try. Sometimes you have to roll the hard six...
She called me again out of the blue to ask about a movie that she found. ( it was Hot Fuzz...She found just the disk) I felt it kinda odd that she would call about that but we talked a little. Still not about last night. She is still very down. At one point she was quiet and I told her Hey your quiet whats wrong honey? She again said nothing so I dropped it and we talked about a few other things, house, Kids toys etc. Still I wonder....why the call?
Gman Me 40 W 30 kids B 11 B 10 D 8 Been here off and on since 06. PA Confirmed Dec 08.. With God, anything is possible. Do or do not there is no try. Sometimes you have to roll the hard six...
You say you are not pursuing, but you've asked two or three times how she is, or what's wrong. To her, that's pursuing. If she wants to tell you, she will. If she doesn't, she won't. She may well want to forget last night happened. It might be a good idea to let her.
You say you are not pursuing, but you've asked two or three times how she is, or what's wrong. To her, that's pursuing. If she wants to tell you, she will. If she doesn't, she won't. She may well want to forget last night happened. It might be a good idea to let her.
Just an observation.
I did let it go. For the rest of the night I didn't ask. I found out she was a little upset with the kids because she cleaned up the house some today. Found toys and papers in such scattered about. She remained in a down kinda pissy mood but it wasn't directed towards me. Our exchanges were kind. After dinner she received a call on her cell. She looked at it and ignored it then promptly shut the phone off for the night. She and I looked up animal adoption sites and info. All good exchanges there. Whats that song by the Kinks? Paranoia destroyer?
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Gman Me 40 W 30 kids B 11 B 10 D 8 Been here off and on since 06. PA Confirmed Dec 08.. With God, anything is possible. Do or do not there is no try. Sometimes you have to roll the hard six...
T his weekend passed without incident. All in all it was a great weekend except for the ungodly amount of snow we received. I think we're into almost a foot now. W told me something interesting....she told DMF to quit calling her or else she press harassment charges. Nice! I think she had her phone on last night and it went off maybe twice. Nothing more was said about the episode of drunkenness and her mood was loving and nice. I think I may go into posting once a week here or just when something significant happens. This forums and everyone's advice has help tremendously. I'll look into a few threads Ive been following and keep email contact with friends here too. If someone needs to get ahold of me, you know who you are... you have my number. Don't hesitate to use it! I'm not saying goodbye by any means. Ill lurk. Peace G
Gman Me 40 W 30 kids B 11 B 10 D 8 Been here off and on since 06. PA Confirmed Dec 08.. With God, anything is possible. Do or do not there is no try. Sometimes you have to roll the hard six...
Gman Me 40 W 30 kids B 11 B 10 D 8 Been here off and on since 06. PA Confirmed Dec 08.. With God, anything is possible. Do or do not there is no try. Sometimes you have to roll the hard six...
Punk, Where ya been bro. Ive seen ya on some other threads but nothing on yours. I hope all is well as they can be.
Small update
The W and I continue to grow and love. Shes home at night when she doesn't work and we continue to do things as a family. She and I even got a night out last weekend! We shot some pool and had a couple of drinks with mutual friends.
No real fights but a few sticky areas. Each time I remembered to DB and we came through it just fine.
Our entire house had emotional day on tuesday. A new puppy (Dauchehound mix) that we got from a local shelter passed away. He was brought in as a stray along with his sister and father. Turns out he was sick even before we got him. It hit all of us hard but the kids rebounded the fastest. Man that just amazes me.
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Gman Me 40 W 30 kids B 11 B 10 D 8 Been here off and on since 06. PA Confirmed Dec 08.. With God, anything is possible. Do or do not there is no try. Sometimes you have to roll the hard six...
Well I'm back..... I'm not sure where it started to go wrong but I can say that it wasn't me. Turns out she has been having an emotional affair with a game mate of ours. I say game mate because we both play an MMO. I had to install a new Power supply in her comp and test it in game. Because of what she does in game (dancer) she gets alot of "tells" or IM's. So I went back through that chat list to see what other characters did etc. I found the tells between her and him. The I love you etc. Soon baby soon and other sexual type tells. Now this supposed friend has many a problems with an ex wife and ex girlfriends. I know...Ive heard it many a night being the good friend and trying to give him an ear. Sure they always flirted. But he crossed a line that you just don't cross with another mans wife. I brought this up to her and she swears there is nothing between them. She asked me if I was smoking pot. Because to her I seemed as through I was. I told her that I wasn't and I would take any kind of test to prove it. She hates drugs. Over the years I had many an opportunity to smoke but I never did out of respect to her and the kids. I still wont. Why the hell didn't you just ask????
Last night I did alot of question asking. Same stuff...not in love with you any more etc. rings are off etc. I never cried. Im more PO'd than anything. She wants me to leave again but I wont because, like before, I wont abandon the kids. I told her that. She wants me to take the hard way so its easy for her. I WONT DO IT. I told her to take off my ring this time. I said you put it on, you take it off and if you want it over, you must pay for the divorce because I came from a family that believed in marriage....thick and thin. She took it off and has it now. Fine. Balls in your court you want it over you take the steps because I wont.
I was PO'd . I asked her how the hell she could she could after 11 years just call it done. She said she never could "talk" to me. Semi not true. We talked but it took alot for her to open up. I asked her if she was planing on taking the kids out of state. She said she couldn't guarantee that. So you want not only call it quits but take that kids away too? Amazing...... I didn't beg or plead. been there done that, didn't work. I did state things on my mind with no remorse. today she was friendly but Im still upset and she knows it. I was civil to her but Ive had enough of the games. I will continue to act as if and to get a life. Maybe you could call it a 180. Im wondering again just why for the past 3 years and always at this time of the year, it all goes belly up? Im wondering right now if its even worth it anymore. I do love her so very much. I don't know why. But right now I hate her some too.
Gman Me 40 W 30 kids B 11 B 10 D 8 Been here off and on since 06. PA Confirmed Dec 08.. With God, anything is possible. Do or do not there is no try. Sometimes you have to roll the hard six...
