I raise my glass to all of you brave DBers and wish us all the best that life has to offer. I feel for all of us, and it is just so hard to deal with, but we'll make it, right?
I think I did the best I could. It was emotional and I cried and wailed a couple of times, but not to my H. Pretty good, huh?
Plus, I realized that it truly is time to count my blessings and the warm, nurturing family and wonderful friends that I already have to help me through.
And my poor doggie. He has listened to me whine and cry, but he just snuggles me and I feel the unconditional love. I gave him extra holiday treats.
The holidays were so hard this year. I really hated it. I put on a happy, fun face for the kids, but I was dying inside.
Jan. 1 - I took off my wedding ring.
Me 36 Husband 35 D5 S2 separated: 10/29/07-present Served divorce papers 1/22/09 "When the world gives out beneath your feet, it is time to learn how to fly."
I planned on spending the night Christmas Eve at the house but the W said I should just come in the morning. That hurt. Wanted to be there with my daughter. Christmas morning I got up and went to the house and the W seemed fine but I could tell she didnt want me there. Again, hurt. Left her alone for the rest of the week. Celebrated Christmas with her family and felt very awkward because nobody knows we are seperated except her parents. Who knows if that will be the last time I see my niece and nephews? My W doesnt understand how this hurts me. I dont get it. I am confused and very sad. Just want to crawl in a hole and hibernate. I just hope and pray that God will heal my heart.
Married to wife 4.5yrs 1 step daughter - 7yrs old - Love her to death Seperated 10/28 - Present
