No, LFL. You are not doing the Corri version of it. But you are doing the LFL version of it. And I dare you never to get lazy again. And somehow, in your LFL version, you'd better not [censored] get lazy... or this cold azz version of some wild horrid creature of Corri is going to stalk you til you, like, corrode horrendously, in your grave. Yes, fear me. Fear Corri. If I ever enter your dreams again... you know you have misstepped. I like it. Fear Corri, fear, corri... something tangible... fear Corri....
Oh, noooooo... I am melllllltttttiiiiinnnnnnggggg... melllllttttiiiinnnnggggg.....
Dam it, I HATE it when my make up smears... fck. Dam it Toto, I TOLD YOU, WATERPROOF MAKEUP, dam it!!!!!! I, CORRI, am INVINSIBLE.... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA!
Oh. I misspelled that. Darn it. Lil? Uhm. I think my hem is torn... my shoes need polishing... uhm.... my hair needs cut... uhm... I'm hungry... sh!t... Corri might be human... don't tell anyone.... k?
I had to have him right then and there but I heard Corri's voice in my damm head telling me I always get what I want and shaking her head(lol) so I decided to forgo the sexual menu and just give him a mind-blowing blowjob with no return service for LFL (unheard of). He looked like this afterwards:
That makes me sad, in a sense.
I'm not so much the hard azz, I'm really not. But if it helps you... and your H... who am I...
LFL, sweety... I call you a princess and that pisses you off. But I'd like to ask your very smart, intuitive, intelligent woman azz... why it does. If I weren't hitting a nerve... you'd just be CeMar. I'm good at it. Ask my xH.
Good for you, honey. Fck your H til he can't see straight. Make him see you.
Just don't do it becuz soldier guy canceled out. You are so much better than that. And you are far more woman than that... and you are so much more than that stupid princess btch you troll around. Be a woman. You are better at it than a princess. You know what you want. Go get it. Stop making excuses and stop hedging. Honesty suits you much better.
I was simply responding to your (IMHO) fatalistic suggestion that all anyone has to lose in an M or an R is money.
Nope. Not unless that is how you present it. But that is how it was presented. To me. In monecal terms. No offense to him. Thtat's what I got it down to. When it all gets to business, that is what it is.
I remember standing in my kitchen...
It all came down to money. Not what was best for boys. Just where they would be... and how much money it would save. But. I pushed it. That was me.
It all came down to brass taxes... because that is where I pushed it. That is what I got. So I got buisness. I was married to an accountant.
This makes no sense. As you say Corri, you pushed it. Your decision was made. You were splitting up.
At that point, all the things that baltoman was saying:
"Some of us have the life that we have built up to lose. It isn't about money. It is about coming home to YOUR HOME and being with YOUR FAMILY"
You had that too. But it had now been decided, by you, that this was now lost.
At that point, once that IS lost, then all that is left to split up is the money.
To understand that I am not getting down on you, I made that SAME decision! That was not a decision that was taken lightly. I had a LOT to lose and it had NOTHING to do with money.
Once that decision was made though, that we would no longer grow old together, share in our kids growth to adulthood TOGETHER. Share (possible) grandchildren together as a family...
Then after that, the only thing to divide is monetary. That is just the way it is. It has nothing to do with your ex being an accountant.
Ok, I see you were all up drinking again last night.
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LFL, sweety... I call you a princess and that pisses you off. But I'd like to ask your very smart, intuitive, intelligent woman azz... why it does.
Duh! Because it's partly true and I don't like the fact that I've been acting...maybe just a tad....spoiled. It's my youngest of 6 mentality. Hard to break the cycle.
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Good for you, honey. Fck your H til he can't see straight. Make him see you.
Just don't do it becuz soldier guy canceled out. You are so much better than that. And you are far more woman than that... and you are so much more than that stupid princess btch you troll around. Be a woman. You are better at it than a princess. You know what you want. Go get it. Stop making excuses and stop hedging. Honesty suits you much better.
Well, I am looking at the soldier guy cancellation as the fates falling in my favor...this time. Make lemons out of lemonade, and all that good stuff. I still believe things happen for a reason, and H and I are on this journey that no matter what bumps we hit the road, we will overcome them.
We were up in the night talking more and other more fun stuff He is so horny now. He can't keep his hands off me. I can't believe how many O's my H has even had this week so far. Who knew he had it in him. We discussed that very thing and he said he feels like he can finally come out of his "sexual shell". That he was "sexually immature" and doesn't want to feel like that anymore. I think he also read the Love Languages book because he said he finally gets how my love language is physical touch/sex. He said he was showing his love by doing things for me and buying me things, but it never was very effective at creating intimacy. I asked him what he needed from me to show love and he said he needs me to use more words of affirmation and try and show him that I am in this for the long haul. I can do that.
LFL had to really rock the boat (and so did he) just to get us on this current path. And believe me, I'm going to fight like he!! to keep us here.
I'm feeling great. Thanks for all the support and kicks in the azz. I hear you, just don't always want to listen. But eventually, I do. So thanks for letting me just be all over the map sometimes. That's LFL for ya.
I think that is great that you two are talking. I think that is the key to this all changing for the long term. Because if he is just doing this to make you happy right now. What happens if he turns back into his old ways? I guess that's the harsh point I was trying to make. Is that cheating is wrong. It is so much better to just get out first. But believe me I can totally see where you are coming from. I am also in a SSM. I do believe it stems from this depression my husband has. But go figure he was about to cheat. I will never get that by the way.
So believe me I do know how you feel about being in a SSM. It sucks when your needs aren't getting met. I hope this will be long term for you. Because at times my husband has made changes only to go back to his old patterns. I am at such a loss at how to turn things around.
Ya know LFL maybe I was projecting my anger at you because of the own anger I feel at myself. I did wake up and haven't done anything. But I am at where you were at. The thing that sucks is that I am being pursued by someone who is interested. He is 10 years younger then me. I am vert pro marriage. But I don't know how much longer I can keep going on like this.
But anyway glad you and the husband are communicating about this. That's great. Sounds like it's leading to some meaningful conversations.
Ya know LFL maybe I was projecting my anger at you because of the own anger I feel at myself. I did wake up and haven't done anything. But I am at where you were at. The thing that sucks is that I am being pursued by someone who is interested. He is 10 years younger then me. I am vert pro marriage. But I don't know how much longer I can keep going on like this.
wow, It was big of you to admit that. That is what I was thinking the last time you posted but I really don't know your story. It was just a hunch. How long have you been M? Do you have kids? The kids are the thing that I try and focus on when I am at my lowest but I also know I need to make myself happy if this is going to work long-term. And maybe I fool myself into thinking, well, I may hurt H sometimes but at least the kids have an intact family. Cake eating. But I'm really trying to find my happiness with H and he is too. He is one of a kind for sure. Lots of guys couldn't put up with my nuttiness. But at least they get hot sex.
Thanks RJ. I've told you before I envy your "steady state" mentality. I doubt I'll ever get to that point just knowing my personality but I'm tryin. LFL
Nothing can change what we have. You are my soulmate. We are both f@ck-ups in some ways. so what. I love you and want to be with you....happily with you...
I wouldn't call it a turn on or anything but it keeps me on my toes. Always keeping you at the center of where I want to be. I forgot that for a while and I regret that more than anything. I also like how sexy it makes you. You seem so much happier and hotter to me in some ways. Not that you weren't hot before but I couldn't see it. I was blind
Translation: It would totally turn me on if you had your cake and ate it too and shared plenty of cake with me. But I'm not about to encourage that sort of thing, mind you. I'd miss you terribly if you wandered off for good.
a fine and enviable madness, this delusion that all questions have answers, and nothing is beyond the reach of a strong left arm.
But at least they get hot sex.