And yes, Jake who played the gay cowboy. I never said I wasn't weird. Actually, Jake is appealing specifically because I see him as sensitive gentle pretty boy on the outside who I could corrupt in the bedroom if I had the chance. Actually, it would be even better if that was my impression and he actually ended up corrupting me. Yum. See, I live too much in fantasyland.
I was not talking to this guy at that point Ok. You said he contacted you in the thread. and then it probably went back and forth about how you couldnt shouldnt talk to him.... *eyeroll* but I actually like being wrong about this stuff...so feel free to correct me.
And frankly, the only reason we have gotten to this point in our M is specifically because of my actions,
Actually not to be nit picky or anything, but just so the men see reality, I would say you are where you are because OM -for whatever reason- implemented a boundary. those were not your actions. those were your and then your H reactions. Things might be quite differant if soldier boy hadnt blown you off.
I know your getting properly Fu@ked now, and I am actually momentarily pleased with soldier boy, for how things have turned out. Do you now, respect your H? Youve juiced him, you havent fixed the problem. However this may be how you two decide to do this. I honestly dont have a problem with that either, if it works for both of you.
So if you are trying to make me feel guilty or "put me in my place" by dredging up old threads
I wasnt talking to you. I was talking to Stig. Remorse for you actions is not mine to make you do, and unlike OP, I dont allow you to hold me responsible for your feelings. Remember?
The goofball. p.s. If I had chosen to have an EA with you, it would not been because I respected you or thought you were special. It would have been because it was easy and I was needy. or my resentment overcame my respect for M, and OM W's, or some combination thereof.
Corri he doesn't want to step out of the way he views himself (older generation, squarish, simple man). Simple i will agree with.
Older generation, yes in age and some values. Maybe i expect similar values from BB. Doesn't say she has to feel the same way.
Squarish, OK but also everyone knew where things stood.
I want to make sure that you understand that I was taking words from your owns posts in how you've described yourself... **I** am not calling you old, square or simple.
And I brought that up to further a point... not because I thought I needed to call you names.
Not really. My 2on2 basketball buddy (my brother from a mother of another color) and I used to pretend we were gay,[edit] in order to pick up girls [/end edit] when I was 18-19 years old. we would push it pretty far. we would even hit on other guys, untill they ran away in terror or nausea from the closeness and the touching. (less competition)
Well, I'm not goig to argue the OM stuff other than to say you shouldn't be "pleased" with the way he handled things. He was a cock-tease and worst of all, not a nice one at that. He suckered me in with the damn puppy dog mixed in with wolf crap. I was just being dumb and horny and resentful of my M.
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Remorse for you actions is not mine to make you do, and unlike OP, I dont allow you to hold me responsible for your feelings. Remember?
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If I had chosen to have an EA with you
well now you are just a cocky goofball. Two can play that game. So cocky LFL will just say she will be satisfied that you certainly wanted to, probably still do in your dreams. But you are a Smart man. I would eat you alive.
I prefer honorable and deliberate. Some negative people would say control freak. If I were smart, I wouldnt be divorced. I would chose to do what works over feeling entitled to Relational reciprocity.
I would eat you alive.
Not with this MO. --> He suckered me in with the damn puppy dog mixed in with wolf crap. I was just being dumb and horny and resentful of my M. ask x about OM. so sad. it courses thru me like a river, for both you and her. Not. There is very little smacking of the lips by me or her, after I tear the house down to rubble and burn everything to a fine ash. and that is My MO if she slips her responsibilities. Save the excuses for you actions for you daddy. So was your H (being dumb and resentful of his M) when he left. He still showed remorse for his actions.
When are you going to step up and fix what he was resentful about?
Its been obvious for a couple of months Stig. I shook my head- from sadness, when SG tried to tell me this wasnt about attraction and respect.
It'd have been more gracious if you'd waited for me to cede the point, bf. Sheesh.
Yes, you were right. I still believe MrLFL let this guy into his life by leaving but agree he'd never have come so close to losing her if he'd been able to keep her attraction. Maybe he will, now.
Don't agree about OM having a conscience, ala Stig, or drawing a boundary. He simply bailed when things would have gotten complicated, like before. Wouldn't surprise me if he tried to draw LFL back into the safe fantasy at some point in the future.
Ok, I have some to time to respond again. H is off in his cave doing music stuff. Funny how that doesn't bother a bit right now considering he first spent some quality time bending me over the couch. (sorry, SG I know you hate that emoticon) dammnn. life is good in LFL World this week.
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Don't agree about OM having a conscience, ala Stig, or drawing a boundary. He simply bailed when things would have gotten complicated, like before. Wouldn't surprise me if he tried to draw LFL back into the safe fantasy at some point in the future.
The complicated comment totally fits him. He was like that when we dated. And I'm mostly just pissed he didn't have the balls to just say "I can't do this." wtf. And that means No Closure. It's like he enjoys having that f-ing door left open a crack. F him. I may be horny and dumb at times but I'm not about to be treated like I'm not worthy of his time. He showed his true colors. I'm fine with it now.
(sorry, SG I know you hate that emoticon)