Christy M: 31 H: 33 Married ~ 13 years S12 S8 Bomb 10/05 supposedly ended A 2nd bomb 12/30/05 Separated 01/06 I filed 6/12/07 ~ new ow 3wks after moving out http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1094955&page=0#Post1094955
Christy M: 31 H: 33 Married ~ 13 years S12 S8 Bomb 10/05 supposedly ended A 2nd bomb 12/30/05 Separated 01/06 I filed 6/12/07 ~ new ow 3wks after moving out http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1094955&page=0#Post1094955
I see that I haven't been here in a month. I got a couple of emails asking what I was up to, so I thought I would update.
In short, I am doing great! I honestly haven't been this happy in so long, probably since before I met H, or maybe very early on in our R. I have found myself again - I know this sounds like a cliche, but I didn't lose myself in the marriage: I lost myself to H. I tried to turn myself into someone I wasn't, and I lost the qualities that made me "me." He told me I was too emotional, too passionate (no, not that way, lol), too this, not enough that...Well, that's me! I finally understand that who I am is not bad; it just didn't suit his little plan for me.
I can honestly say that I have absoltely NO jealousy towards him and his gf. They are moving in together next week, and I am just happy that (a) he will be out of the neighbourhood, and (b) the kids will now have two residences, not three, so maybe he can take them more. The gf actually seems sweet, although very shy and unsure of herself, at least around me. I wonder if she is curious as to why I'm so very happy w/ H out of my life, lolol!
H has been nasty, so I told him that he could only contact me re the settlement through the Ls. I don't care if it costs more than mediation; I just want peace. I am hoping that all this will be done by Christmas, and I will be FREE in the new year.
I will continue in another post, in case I lose this!
Life isn't about finding yourself; it's about creating yourself My thread: Trusting God's Plan
