I was a little bit in love with him and he was a little bit in love with me but no longer, so it would be sad to carry on. However, I will always remember him with genuine fondness because he was a man capable of gestures that made me feel beautiful in his presence and every swan with a broken wing needs a lover like that.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
My S18 is now self-supporting and lives away from home in a nearby college town. He came by the house today while I was away at a book sale. On my shopping list clipboard he left a wad of money and a note telling me to buy the dog some food and various treats. It was like he was leaving child support for the dog. You guys get one guess what my reaction was when I saw that.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
Well... turn the cow out to pasture and let the swan out of her pen... jeese... you're making decisions left and right, and your son turns into a man.... no telling what's going to happen next!!
turn the cow out to pasture and let the swan out of her pen
I'm still confused about the whole swan thing. Also, I think it is quite likely the case that the monkey is my highest functioning animal. For instance, clearly, the swan can't write for crap. My sister's BF once said that the two of us were like 12 year old boys in women's bodies but he meant it as a compliment. One of the things I liked best about NG was that he mostly really liked and accepted my monkey. He gave off the vibe that he found my antics "cute", "amusing" or "sexy". I want to be with a man who will accept my monkey and that means that I want to be with a man who will "let me be happy".
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
turn the cow out to pasture and let the swan out of her pen
I'm still confused about the whole swan thing. Also, I think it is quite likely the case that the monkey is my highest functioning animal. For instance, clearly, the swan can't write for crap. My sister's BF once said that the two of us were like 12 year old boys in women's bodies but he meant it as a compliment. One of the things I liked best about NG was that he mostly really liked and accepted my monkey. He gave off the vibe that he found my antics "cute", "amusing" or "sexy". I want to be with a man who will accept my monkey and that means that I want to be with a man who will "let me be happy".
For what it's worth, I think your monkey is your highest functioning animal also, although perhaps we should assign them percentages? At your highest-functioning, you're 45% in monkey mode, 15% lioness, 15% bunny and 25% swan? *g*
I think the lioness and the bunny need to balance each other out, because they're in the same spectrum, just on opposite ends. And maybe the monkey and the swan need to balance each other out too? Should it be 35% monkey and and 35% swan? *muses*
No, I like my original recipe. Fun-loving and vivacious, with a sprinkle of determination and vulnerability which is also openness/fearlessness, combined with a side of feminine allure.
Just becuz you have a swan does not mean she needs to rule. The monkey is happy in first place. Not my point.
I'm just saying... for this ONE part of you regardless of who is dominant... which is why I would like to have lunch to discuss... it doesn't matter. The priority here is in considering what you THOUGHT was there, but wasn't. That's all. Don't care if it isn't the dominant. But... it does matter in the whole overview of 'what do I have in my zoo,' kind of thing.
For what it's worth, I think your monkey is your highest functioning animal also, although perhaps we should assign them percentages? At your highest-functioning, you're 45% in monkey mode, 15% lioness, 15% bunny and 25% swan? *g*
That's just about how I would rank them too depending on context. However, my children once paid me the great compliment of describing their early childhood as being "fun" so maybe I'm more monkey even as a mother.(Picture two naked toddlers covered with fingerpaint.)
I think what I want in a man is someone who would balance me by being 15% lion, 15% puppy dog, 25% monkey and 45% bear. I see the bear as being someone whose strength is manifested as warmth and/or generosity. The kind of guy who would be inclined towards giving people bear hugs and would be a wonderful host. That man would appreciate and accept the monkey and the swan. I think my personality would complement his because if he called me up and said "I just ran into some old friends at the coffee house and I'd like to bring them home for dinner." the swan would smile and say "Sure." and the monkey would rev up and whip together an instant party.
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I think this means a guy who
1) is happy on his own with himself/by himself
2) does not make you responsible for his happiness
3) is not threatened by your happiness
With someone like that you could have a lot of fun.
(IOW NOT the ex-Mr Mojo, who is disqualified in all three of those areas.)
Well, it's not like Mr. Mojo was pure evil. I think the problem was that he was "sweet" rather than "warm". I want to be with a man who is emotionally expressive rather than one who is emotionally sensitive. Too much puppy dog and not enough bear for me. Also, probably the worst true thing that could be said about him in relationship to me was that he was "mean-spirited" especially if you think of the word "mean" in terms of somebody who feels like they have little to give so holds on to what they have graspingly or miserly. Partly this was due to our incompatibility because he was so introverted and partly this was due to the fact that he never found his purpose.
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I'm just saying... for this ONE part of you regardless of who is dominant... which is why I would like to have lunch to discuss... it doesn't matter. The priority here is in considering what you THOUGHT was there, but wasn't. That's all. Don't care if it isn't the dominant. But... it does matter in the whole overview of 'what do I have in my zoo,' kind of thing.
I have to say that I am seriously intrigued and a little freaked out that there is something about me that you have discovered that can only be discussed privately over lunch. I would love to have lunch with you for any reason but now you have made it a necessity. - lol
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
