Had a bad day...

[GK99]

I haven't posted in a while. Things had been going fairly good. I have been moving on, GAL, and all the things we're supposed to do. W and I are close to having a separation agreement completed. I am about 6 weeks away from moving back to my home town to start to rebuild my life. I was even excited to move on and leave this part of my life behind me.

Today I had to make the decision to put one of my cats down.

For those that don't know, I went back home in July and took my cats with me. I left them with my parents so they could look after them while I made the transition back there. I figured it would be easier on them, given that I will be driving across the country to move back there and it would take several days...not ideal conditions for 2 cats.

A couple of days ago my dad called me to let me know that one of the cats was sick and they took him to the vet last weekend. They kept it from me in order to keep me from getting upset. I called the vet on Thursday morning and the nurse told me that his fever had gone down but that he still wasn't eating on his own. She sounded concerned but hopeful.
I got the call from the vet this afternoon saying they've done all they can but he is not responding to treatment. He recommended I put him down.

I called W to let her know. She handled it much better than I thought she would. In fact, she barely cried at all. When I hung up with her I called the vet to give consent to have him put down.

I was counting down the days until I would be reunited with him. It actually helped me get through the days out here. I feel an incredible amount of guilt for sending him away. He must have been so stressed.

I am at a loss to understand all of this. I will forever miss my buddy.

[shewholurks]

GK99,

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your precious kitty. We lost our beloved Oreo kitty early this year. I hope that the following website helps a little.

The Rainbow Bridge


Blessings,

~ swl

[myturnnow]

(((GK99)))

My heart goes out to you..I am so sorry about your loss..

I love animals and my cat is a part of my family, too. I understand.

Give yourself time to heal. Give yourself time to breath..And most of all, know what a wonderful person you are..

Hugs,

[bambam1970]

(((((GK)))))

I know it doesn't make sense why God keeps placing these obstacles before us. I continue to think, "What did I do????"

I really think it's what God knows about us that we are finding out. Everytime he throws one down, I kick and scream but get up and dust myself off and continue on working through that obstacle and not around it.

That's what you are doing. I'm sorry you've lost a friend. I understand that heartbreak and have been there a few times. Take your time working through it.

Hugs to you today!

[inmyplace]

Hi GK. Sorry to hear about your cat. While I am not the fluffiest person in the world, I still remember taking our family dog to the vet for the final time. I didn't cry my eyes out, but a couple tears found my cheeks. So I feel for you. It's sad that lives must end, but I still find joy when I tell people about our dog.

Have a great day, GK. Good luck with your move and the best part of life is yet to come.

IMP

[a new 2moro]

(((((((GK))))))) I so understand what you are going thru. My animals are such a part of my life. My heart goes out to you at this time. Do go to the link swl sent you. its beautiful. I so believe in rainbow bridge. Prayers will said and a candle lit for your precious kitty

[Lissie]

So sorry to hear about your cat lovey (hugs)

[GK99]

Thank you all so much for the kind words. It has been a rough couple of days, but I know that things will be better. I have already made plans to go out to dinner and a movie tonight - I just didn't want to sit around the house all day.

I did watch the Rainbow Bridge that SWL sent me - it was very moving. Thank you for that.

I decided to have my cat cremated. I will plant a tree and spread his ashes once I buy a home back in Ontario - it is the best way I can think of to honour him.

[GK99]

I know it doesn't make sense why God keeps placing these obstacles before us. I continue to think, "What did I do????"

I've probably asked this question a hundred times in the past 24 hours. The problem is that I keep answering it the same way - I sent my cat away and that likely contributed to his death. The vet said that extreme stress can trigger the onset of this horrible disease. Not only did I send him on a plane to live in a new home with new people, a couple of weeks ago we had to have him shaved at a groomer because his fur was really matted. We've shaved him several times over the years but I think the combination of all of the stress caused this. If he had stayed here with me, this likely wouldn't have happened.

I really think it's what God knows about us that we are finding out. Everytime he throws one down, I kick and scream but get up and dust myself off and continue on working through that obstacle and not around it.

I'm not the most religious or spiritual person in the world but I do think it is important to take these things that happen and learn and grow from them. I've always hated the expression 'things happen for a reason'. But I do think it is so important to take meaning out of the things that happen to us.

Thanks again bambam for looking in on me.

[GK99]

Hi GK. Sorry to hear about your cat. While I am not the fluffiest person in the world, I still remember taking our family dog to the vet for the final time. I didn't cry my eyes out, but a couple tears found my cheeks. So I feel for you. It's sad that lives must end, but I still find joy when I tell people about our dog.

Have a great day, GK. Good luck with your move and the best part of life is yet to come.

IMP

Thanks IMP. I have always suspected that you weren't the "fluffiest" of people, now I have confirmation!

I know I too will find joy in telling people about my cat. He was such a good little guy, but kind of a sh!t disturber too - kind of like me...