Nay. I had to turn my head as well. Just wish it would have been a hot chick check my ..... instead of an awkward looking old man.
When I was being processed into the Navy and had my initial physical, there were about 50 of us in the same room with our drawers down to our ankle. The processing before and during boot camp was somewhat similar to how cattle is treated on their way to the slaughter house. Always done in large groups no matter what they had to do to you.
Anyway, two male doctors we're walking from opposite ends of the formation performing this very procedure. With each of them, there was an assistant holding a clip board and taking notes for the doctors. One of them was a very attractive wave and I still wonder to this day what she thought about her job. I didn't see her during mine, but I wonder if she ever had to work the prostate exam?
"It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare." -Mark Twain
Got to thinking about things (yes, we know that is dangerous for me) but this time it was all good. I realized many things that I have not seen or wanted to see before. This is more for me than anyone else. It is going to be long so read if you want but if you don't, that is ok too.
1. Been separated almost 29 months (not divorced). 2. H doesn't mention the "D" word. 3. H still does things for me if asked. 4. Still communicate with H (not everyday but enough). 5. H isn't with anyone else. 6. H has seen my myspace and didn't complain to me about his pic being on it. 7. His name is still on my email (from XXXXX & XXXXXX) and has not asked me to change it. 8. When I was going out to my MF's house he would come up with an excuse to call me. 9. He tells the girls things knowing they will tell me (his way of letting me know things???) 10.I have pics of him all over the house (even added some since he left) but he doesn't ask me to take them down. 11.He has pics of us at his place in his living room on the bookshelf. 12.He still has stuff at our house. 13.He makes the full mortgage payment for me. 14.H used to tell me when I would ask about us "Why can't we just leave things the way they are right now". He told me when he left he needed some time. He said could be a week, month or even years. He didn't know. (MLC) 15.He is involved more in the kids lives now than when he was at home. 16.He and I get along a lot better. 17.He doesn't tell people we are apart. Some people still don't know after all this time. 18.He responds each time I call him. (In the beginning he would ignore me). 19.He has admired all the things I have done with the house (fixing it up). 20.He paid over $100 for a ring for me for Mothers Day from the girls. 21.He spends the holidays with us. 22.He spent our birthdays together out to dinner. 23.The bills at the house are still in his name also. He has not asked me to take his name off of them.
Those are a few (ok, maybe more than a few) positives I can think of right now. Looking at that makes me feel so much better. This was more for me than anyone else. I needed to see it in writing I guess.
T2, it is great to step back and take inventory now and again of what positives we do have because our minds tend to forget what is there and focus too myuch on what is not.
Sorry you had to chase me down this am.... .have been crazy is all....
You beat me here this time Ian. I decided to take a leisurely stroll to the post office this morning instead of driving. It is a little warm out there but the walk was refreshing. I think I may start doing that instead of driving. I need to get back in shape from the winter (I sit and don't do much in the winter).
Hmmmmmm, this weekend......I am going to go visit an aunt that is up from Florida tonight after work. Tomorrow I am going to a friends house (they are out of town) and go swimming. They told me to enjoy the pool while they are gone and I am. Probably hit the grocery store also. Sunday I am going swimming again. Not much else going on. I am having a lazy, fun weekend. How about you?
Next weekend a friend of mine is coming with me to do some shopping. Not planning on spending much, just wanted to get out. We do a lot of window shopping and then stop and have a nice lunch.
I am going to try and stay busy for a bit. My mind has worked over time this week and I think it needs a break.
