It's great to hear from you! I have been (more or less) keeping up on the different threads that interest me. I see that you seem to be making some great headway. That is absolutely awesome! Keep it up!
I get (almost) embarrassed when I read my thread(s). I do (have done) an awful lot of ranting, with little action on my part.
The clincher (in my situation) I believe, is that my husband is on medications that have put him where he is at. I am reading .. time and time again, of others in similar situations. .. And my H thinks everything is just fine.
I have begun seeing a new counselor .. who happens to be in the same office as my husband's psychiatrist. My husband will be very unhappy if he finds out that I am seeing a counselor (I think he thinks they will talk me into divorce .. or something?) Anyway, I am thinking that this counselor might be able to help me in getting through to husband's pdoc? Either that or at least help me DO something positive for me.
This counselor is still pretty new .. but I'm hopeful.
Things, I guess, are "okay" with the new C. I mentioned before that she is in the same office as H's pdoc. I continued going to her because I had heard great things about her. Well .. I didn't realize how uncomfortable it would make me feel to be walking by H's pdoc all of the time .. when going into my C's office.
I am ONLY uncomfortable because I think that it will come out (at some point and time) that H's pdoc observed this. I don't want/need my H to know this .. at this time.
Also this C has come across to me (after the first three appointments) that there is pretty much no way that H's pdoc could be wrong. THAT, in and of itself, totally turned me off. So, even though I have two more appointments set up with this C, I am thinking about canceling. I know that I can find someone that I feel more comfortable/validated with.
I do have some news to report .. after two weeks of H having to cut down on his Mirapex dosage (he cancelled doc appt. and couldn't get his script refilled until he saw pdoc) I began seeing a change in H! I am almost afraid to type it out here, thinking that maybe I will "jinx it" .. or something?
All of a sudden H seems to be listening to me. He stayed home more (ie did not head up to the bar at night) .. Last week, he was home Saturday night, Sunday night and Monday night. He did go out on Tuesday and Wednesday, was home again on Thursday and then was out again on Friday. Last night we had a wedding reception to go to. He wanted to stop at the bar on the way home, but I wasn't feeling well and he didn't push it .. we were able to just come home.
Personally, I am feeling like this is HUGE! H's current changes (which I KNOW is because of the medication adjustment) just totally supports what I have been saying all along. I know that it is still very early and (it's like) I am just holding my breath .. watching/waiting .. but I am hoping that things will continue to improve.
The plan is (MY plan) is to keep H on the current half dose of Mirapex (that psychiatrist prescribes for him) and watch and wait to see how much more he will improve.
Okay .. I haven't posted for quite some time. And what I am posting today is in regards to a totally different issue .. (then what I have ranted so about so long in my thread above. )
This is something that I know that I responded to 100% appropriately, but it is hanging over my head as far as responsibility in reporting to affected parties.
For the past year or so my B-I-L has been sending me those famous/annoying "forwards" that so many of us get from our email buddies/family. I thought nothing of it .. but did kind of wonder how he got my email address. (My mother gave it to him!??)
All of a sudden these emails began to get more personal .. in that he was telling me what was going on in his life. This guy is married to my sister. (!) The personal emails I never responded to. Well, I didn't respond to him period .. just continued getting those forwards.
Last week I got several text messages on my cell phone and then a couple of emails. He comes right out and tells me how "bad" it is at home for him. He mentions that he "knows" we have been friends for some time and thought that "we could make each other happy." (Obviously there was much more said, but this is the "jist" of all that he said in his emails to me.)
Anyway, I emailed him and told him absolutely not and that he should not try to contact me again .. in any way, shape or form.
I just don't "get" how he thinks he could do this, without destroying his marriage ? ..
I originally thought I had decided that I was not going to say anything to my sister about her husband's proposition to me .. but have since been feeling very bad about this. I am just not sure what to do ..
Sister and B-I-L have just sold their house and are in the process of building new. Their daughter is getting married in October .. I am feeling like it is way too much to be dumping on my dear sister right now.
But then, I think to myself .. I know that I would want to know .. ?
(Obviously there was much more said, but this is the "jist" of all that he said in his emails to me.)