Haven't heard from you in a while. How's it going?
-NOPkins-
I will ferret out an affair at any opportunity.
-An affair is the embodiment of entitlement, fueled by resentment and lack of respect. -An infidel will remain unreachable so long as their sense of entitlement exceeds their ability to reason.
Life is going very well. Thanks for asking. Ive been extremely busy, and have only been able to catch up here about once a week. I got a email yesterday, informing me of this thread. I missed it somehow, last time I read here.
I'm glad to hear you are doing well. You've been quiet for a while and I was wondering about you.
The stone, well, it is still stuck and I just loaded up on meprozine because it is moving a bit. I have another x-ray scheduled for Friday, but I am about to give up on getting it out of me naturally. I hate the idea of the basket, but I am about convinced that it is my only option. Thanks for asking.
So, tell me what's going on. Are you dating?
All the best, -NOPkins-
I will ferret out an affair at any opportunity.
-An affair is the embodiment of entitlement, fueled by resentment and lack of respect. -An infidel will remain unreachable so long as their sense of entitlement exceeds their ability to reason.
Funny you should ask that. My mom wanted to know if there was anyone I was 'halfway interested in' when I talked to her yesterday.
'why didnt you tell me you left? did you take a girl? what about that one? '
sigh.
No there is no one 'special'. I wouldnt even call the tenuous and fleeting encounters I have dating. IMO, I resemble LFL's OM. No rapport. Ive found- like mojo mentioned- that if you dont call them for a couple weeks they move on. I dont have the inclination or the resources to 'nurture' anyone, believe that petting the bunny sets a bad precedent, not to mention shows a lack of control over your attraction if you do that nonsense, and set that expectation right from the beginning. dont consider myself a good candidate for being a H. x, who I still consider to be a extremely intuitive and satisfactorily intelligent woman, was pretty adamant about that at the end of the R.
I have work, bartending (also known as barrel of fish-catch and release only ), train, (just ran my first triathlon in 14 years april 15), and take my 3 nephews to little league 2 times a week. I just got back from Chuuk, needed a break- from several things, after finishing my last work project.
So basically, my selfish ass doenst have time for anyone other then the F's that just want to slam me like a beer, or... how did southern girl put it... 'open-minded fun-loving sexually mature men with "monkey"-like attitudes' . I certainly wouldnt call myself mature , but experienced seems to be an acceptable substitute. For a while there I was posting here after the evening was finished, but then I noticed a couple of them were trying to get at me thru reading my (previous) posts here. (Hey stig, if your reading, its no big deal. Its really easy to spot. Its annoying but nothing to worry about.) So know I go running when we are done. Talk about brutally hard, when all you want to do is go to sleep. oh well. its good training.
havent had time to read all the current threads yet, did you use the basket yet? just bite the bullet and get the pain over with. Honestly I would want to choke the life out of the doctor as soon as I saw that tube snaking towards Johnsonville. 'Hey stupid, wrong way!!' Better have anesthesia for that procedure.
So basically, my selfish ass doenst have time for anyone other then the F's that just want to slam me like a beer, or... how did southern girl put it... 'open-minded fun-loving sexually mature men with "monkey"-like attitudes' .
Well normally when women your age ask me that I say I am 24. But since we are all serious and stuff around here,
Im 34, look 25, and feel 94. LOL. Divorced Nov 2005. Less time then you. At the accepted rate of return 2months/yr, I return to normal anytime this month now. I will say I was able to stop using negative memories to keep my boundaries in place, a month or so ago. Boy was that a relief. I detest hanging onto the negative. Its like using chromium picolinate to lose weight. It works, but its poison.
So lets not drag this out, get to your point. but tread carefully. I bite.
SG
Did I say that?
Yes, would you like a post referance? You and mojo were very entertaining, and informative in that last thread.
Well normally when women your age ask me that I say I am 24.
Women my age?! Christ, BF, why don't you just call me Ma'am and tell me not to get my girdle in an uproar.
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But since we are all serious and stuff around here, Im 34, look 25, and feel 94. LOL.
Feeling 94 in terms of wise beyond your years (I'd love to have 94 years worth of life experience and be living in a 34 y/o body)... or, having a hard time rolling out of bed everyday?
What's my point. You sound a bit... defeated, even though you say you are beyond your negative. No offense, I understand the sentiment. Just makes me sad to see such a young whipper snapper like yourself letting llfe control your 'flow.'
Ah, well. I'm not one to talk.... and quite hoenstly, I lost my original point... must be my age... memory begins to slip.
Feel free to answer my questions to you in LFL's thread over here.
You don't really believe your ex'es BS about not being H material, do you?
Here are my choices.
a) believe that x was an intuitive and intelligent woman. b) Believe that she was an idiot (what does that say about me for marring her though? I dont like that choice. ) c) believe that women oof unknown intelligence and intuition, who really dont know me, are capable of making a better informed observation then said intuitive and intelligent x, who knew me for nearly a decade. a Decade. how pathetic a time is that for a marriage?
of those choices a) seems to coincide most closely with GELS recent comments and observation that she (a woman) should (parphrase) 'always trust her gut feeling'.
That sounds a lot like x saying, 'I dont know, I just have to go with my feelings.' Ok. I comprehend.
hence, my opinion + gels opinion + the grade I got on my last test = I am not good H material.
It doesnt matter what I believe. Even though I have it on good authority that I am incredibly attractive, not only do I not desire to be my H, belief is in the eye of the perceivor.
Add to that, x may have started her toe testing the waters EA prior to our seperation, but only started the A after we were seperated. She found this very important to clarify when wanting to reconcil. Unless I interpreted incorrectly, I believe you said that was acceptable. When you are a serial monogamist, Im sure it makes perfect sense. Im not, so it doesnt.
I keep coming up with black and white. Explain to me the gray.
A retentive memory is one of my life's curses.
Actually I think womens negative retentive memories are OUR curse. I really wouldnt want to lose the other estrogen created endowments as a cure though. Not at all.
, but experienced seems to be an acceptable substitute. For a while there I was posting here after the evening was finished, but then I noticed a couple of them were trying to get at me thru reading my (previous) posts here. 
(Hey stig, if your reading, its no big deal. Its really easy to spot. Its annoying but nothing to worry about.) So know I go running when we are done. Talk about brutally hard, when all you want to do is go to sleep. oh well. its good training. 
just bite the bullet and get the pain over with. Honestly I would want to choke the life out of the doctor as soon as I saw that tube snaking towards Johnsonville. 'Hey stupid, wrong way!!' 
