I just wanted to let you know that I am still alive. I have a lengthy update . . . to come. I just simply don't feel like doing it right now! Drop me a line and let me know how you all are doing! Update to come . . . .
Well it been a loong strange road. Things are just sort of drifting, and I won't complain about that.
My H and I went to court last Thursday and she brought him up. I told him I was filing for the D, because I was sick of the games. Long story short he stayed with me and sent her home. He had to leave again though because of his job. He's suppose to be home for good tomorrow . . . but I don't expect it, as a matter of fact I doubt it, but want it VERY much.
He's finally admitting that there is something mentally/emotionally wrong with him. When he gets "home" he is going to go to the hospital. That's the short version . . . I'll try to fill in later. I'll keep you updated as the days pass. . . .
Bomb 1/06 D dismissed 11/07, attempt reconciliation. Premature. Divorce final October 31, 2008. OW looks like bad history. Over. Still hopeful. Baby steps. In R with my X.
I haven't heard from my H since the 7th . . . He really has me worried. He's been REALLY depressed and talking about "doing the world a favor". I keep thinking that he probably just went back to his girlfriend, not that that is very comforting, but more so than the thought of him lying in a ditch somewhere with no one really looking for him.
I called and his sister said they haven't seen him since the 7th either, but she just assumed that he was merely staying with the girlfriend. He seemed so sincere this time, I just am having A LOT of trouble beliving it was all a "wool over the eyes" . . . and I don't know what to think.
Time is dragging, and none of the phonecalls are him. I have no way to get a hold of him, if he doesn't turn up SOMEWHERE soon I guess I'll have to start calling hospital and police. Pray for him, he is sooo lost.
Hi Emily! I'm so sorry to be reading about your current sitch. I pray that he's OK and will turn up soon. It's good that you worry about him, and I hope that he understands that you care for him.
Keep us posted!
~Sol
~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Single Dad, and luvin it! ~ Happiness is a state of mind ~
He had talked about walking because he doesn't have a car and no money for another busticket. But it's almost 200 miles from there to here, and that has me really worried.
His sister wouldn't tell me if she knew where he was anyway (because she doesn't like me, not because I asked), so I explained the sitch to his brother and asked him for help since he likes me, so hopefully tomorrow he'll at least find out if my H has truly disappeared or is just "in hiding".
These 'doing the world a favor' remarks are meant to garner sympathy. As I told Amy once, if I cut my throat every time I thought about it, I'd have been out of throats a long time ago!
Suicide is punishment for the survivors. Ask him who he wishes to punish. Is it his children? His Parents? His siblings? His wife? His friends? The poor schmuck that'll find his body? He's experiencing pain that he himself caused. He will have to stand accountable and atone. It hurts and it sucks. It will tell us what kind of man he is and wants to be. He must make this passage without you enabling him.
Are you up for it?
Your old Daddy,
David
The fires of true love can never be quenched, because the source of its flame is God Himself! - Shulamith
