Howdy neighbors - looks like I'm moving in!

[standingbear]

It has been awhile, but we all go through this my friend. Take a big deep breathe and let it out. You are normal. Hang in there and let God guide you through this journey.

Think of something positive and smile today

[AverageJoe]

So, I came home tonight determined to put myself in a better mood. I can't stand being depressed, and I'm not sure why I allowed myself to stew for the last few days like that.

So I went and got out several storage bins of Christmas decorations and started putting stuff out. Wreathes, stocking, Santa statues, Christmas candles...

I started feeling better almost immediately. WAW stopped in. I told myself I was gonna be cheery and upbeat, and by golly I was. She even commented saying, "You sure are in a good mood!".

She had come by to picked up D12 and D14 so they could spend the night at her apartment. I asked WAW if she'd like to take some of the Christmas decorations for her place. She looked at me with shock. I told her to help herself to whatever she'd like to make her place Christmasy.

She took probably half a dozen items. Before she left she came over and hugged me and thanked me for offering the stuff.

An alien-free moment. I like those!

Lesson learned? I made all the difference. My chipper mood knocked her right out of the previous alien mode.

[DBHOPEFUL]

Good Job AJ,
It's nice to be able to affect something, isn't it? Even if it's just yourself.
Have a good night!
DBH

[AverageJoe]

Had a physical yesterday. Just something I decided to schedule since it had been a while. I had some concern because I was having occassional shortness of breath and what felt like my heart skipping a beat.

EKG came back normal and everything checked out fine. I told the Doc all about my sitch, and he said that what I felt MAY have been caused ny stress. I also told him about my depression. There have days where it hits me pretty hard, then days where I'm fine (or as fine as can be expected). He wrote me a 'scrip from Zoloft. I hope that does the trick. Depression sucks!

[AverageJoe]

I was on the way home tonight when WAW called. Of course she starts out with, "Will you do me a favor?".

I mean....why else would she call me???? Sex? Companionship? Just to talk? Nope, to ask a favor!

Of course the favor is veiled in an invitation to dinner. The fact is she doesn't want to go back out in the cold, so if I come to dinner I can bring D12 over to her apartment. She also needs a large pot from the house to make dinner in.

"And while you're at it....I'm out of cigarettes!".

Anything else.....DEAR?!?!?

A lesser man would have told her to go have sexual intercourse with her own self. I guess God is still standing beside me keeping me from being that lesser man! I keep getting reminded that she's not herself. Can I hold her accountable while she's so messed up and confused? God keeps telling me I can not! So I'll supress my anger, I'll do these things for her, and I'll be nice and friendly when I get there.

[mermaid]

Joe
Do you want to have dinner with your w? If not then why don't you just bring over d12 and say you have other plans. As for the cooking pot and cigarettes well you just don't have time to get those because you have a life.

If you want dinner then remember act as if and be happy happy happy.

[attorneytom]

Joe:

Mermaid raises an excellent point here !.. You are a nice guy of course so.. you drop off your daughter and the pot. You "probably " have a lot to do this evening, right ? wink. wink.. nudge.. nudge..? Like watch the Browns lose to Ptsbg. or something.... ?
Tom

[brandnewday]

And you will have the perfect opportunity to be a gentleman and show her some of your amazing changes.

[AverageJoe]

It actually went rather well. Not great, but OK. I couldn't help but notice that the only topic of conversation that interests her is...HER! All evening, "I did this, what about me, I'm going to do this, I, me, me, I". It was distracting! I suppose that's the MLC?

I tried to redirect the conversation to other things a couple of times, but she's just look away and then just disappear from the talk altogether. Strange!

As I was leaving she told me I had been too quite. LOL! Well darlin', you dominated the conversation with talk of you, and when I tried to talk about anything else you weren't interested.

Oh well. She did say that we'd have to do it again some time. She told me that she wanted to work on being friends. I guess that's something! Sure beats being enemies!

Have I told ya'll today how much I love that woman?

[peter2DB]

AverageJoe

Your breezy account of the evening tells me you're in good shape here. Keep it up, man.

Peter