Chloroform The One You Love

[Emily28]

The last thread was a title of a Stephan King book . . . so why not the title of a song
(It's by Flickerstick . . . I've posted the lyrics before)
Anyway this is a back up in case my last thread locks up tonight . . . I want to make sure if anyone has an answer to the question I posed they can post that answer.
Nightmares and Dreamscapes
There ya are folks . . . . if it's locked up . . go ahead and post here! Thanks all!

[AmyC]

I hit enter and your last thread just got locked so I am continuing our conversation here...

I don't feel that Kevin is worth saving.
There are so many other who deserve it so much more than he.
He is nothing but a LYING CHEATING peice of crap.

Well I am real glad that God did not see ME that way.
Fortunately for Kevin, you are not his Judge.

But make no mistake, He has called you to stand.

Do you know what it means to be "blessed", Emily?

It means to be empowered to succeed.

HE IS all that you need to endure this season.

[Emily28]

I went to reply to you Amy . . and my thread was locked so . . . here goes into a new one!

By the way, that's not for you but I know the enemy is using it to make you think you need to quit standing.

Tell me I am wrong...

Actually you ARE wrong Amy . . . it was like a slap in the face in the other direction.

I will copy over the last few posts just so this convo makes a touch more sense! BRB

[AmyC]

...and regarding your statement about letting Cassie stand for him, that ain't gonna fly.

Cassie will never be more than an adulteress.
That's BIBLE, BABY!

YOU are to stand.

[AmyC]

Actually you ARE wrong Amy . . . it was like a slap in the face in the other direction.

SWEET!

THIS IS ONE OF THOSE TIMES I WANT TO BE WRONG!!

[Emily28]

ME:
Amy I know what He wants to me . . .
I understand that.
EVERYTHING lately has been going this way.
I pray about what to do and I recieve a sign (it's always to stand) . . . I go to church and the preacher is talking about vows . . .
JEESH.

I just CAN'T
I've been going about this all wrong for too long.
I don't feel that Kevin is worth saving.
There are so many other who deserve it so much more than he.
He is nothing but a LYING CHEATING peice of crap.
HE chooses Cassie . . . so let HER stand for him.
I CANNOT call up the strength, NOT for him.

I have the strength to stand in faith that Kiya will be healthy. That she will live a LONG full life.
Her kidney problem will be fixed. Her hearing will clear up or she'll have a hearing aid. . . .
I know Kiya will OK.
It's going to be hard to watch them do the tests . . . but I know in the end it will about be fine.

Kiya is WORTH every ounce of my strength and being . . . . Kevin isn't.

OH SCREW IT WERE ALL CONFUSED ANYWAY

Try to keep up with Amy and I if you can

[AmyC]

I know what the basic problem here is.

You don't know who you are.
Who God says you are.

We're going to work on that.

But I have to mow grass first.

[Emily28]

...and regarding your statement about letting Cassie stand for him, that ain't gonna fly. It's his choice though . . .

Cassie will never be more than an adulteress. He's been lying to her just like he has me. She thinks that we are getting divorced as in the papers are just waiting to be signed by me . . . So . . .does that make me an adulteress because he was lying to me and sleeping with her and I at the same time. I honestly don't see how she is to blame. Sure I hate her guts (I'm working on it OK) . . and I knew she threw herself at him before we were seperated even . . I know she's been with other married men . . . but in Kevin's case I honestly think it's different.
That's BIBLE, BABY!

YOU are to stand.

Well I am real glad that God did not see ME that way.
Fortunately for Kevin, you are not his Judge. Thank God for SMALL miracles huh?

But make no mistake, He has called you to stand. I know . . .

Do you know what it means to be "blessed", Emily?

It means to be empowered to succeed.

HE IS all that you need to endure this season. UGH . . . I just can't find the strength or the courage . . . or hell even the WANT to deal with another second of Kevin.

[Emily28]

I know what the basic problem here is.

You don't know who you are.
Who God says you are.

We're going to work on that. OK????

But I have to mow grass first. This REALLY is all you do isn't it? You must have the shortest grass in town . . .

[RBinBR]

I just CAN'T
I've been going about this all wrong for too long.
I don't feel that Kevin is worth saving.

Emily, each one of us is worth it to Christ. Were you worth his saving you? None of us "deserve" the second chance that He has given us, Emily, but He still looks at us with love.


But you don't really need to stand for Kevin ... you need to stand for yourself, so that you can develop strength. You need to be faithful and strong for a couple of months.