I am kind of shocked by how sad and devastated I feel. As I told him last night in my screaming fit, this is worse than the first time, I guess to know that the lies go on, and the worst part of all is that he stayed home to talk to that whore on the phone while i rushed S to the hospital when he was so desperately ill. I don't know if I can reconcile that....and then he doesnt even seem to see it as wrong.
You can make it through this, have your thoughts together, listen and keep your goals in mind. Tonight will probably be about self control and toughness for you. I suspect he will be doing justification and apologizing. Remember, if you have to take a break and come back, do so. I would get the talk over with so instead of festering, you'll know what your facing. I'm not sure what to say about the hotel idea, your call.
Hi Phoenix, I kinda lean the way you do to get the talk going. I am calmer than I was, hope I can stay that way. I did start a pro/con list of leaving. it's not real long on either side, but interestingly so far the pros are ahead, although the cons are "heavier" I think. although I just thought of a few more cons....hmmmm
I wonder if H will stop by my office. I will miss it if he doesnt, I always look forward to it. I don't know if it will be good or bad if he does, though, the obnoxious sob has a way of melting my heart. Guess I'll know in the next 20 - 30 minutes, though. sigh.
H did stop by my office. I saw him glance at my shelf where I had our photos, I took them down because they made me so sad. I thought he kind of looked shocked. Said he is too tired to talk tonight. I'm exhausted also, but i sure want to know what he has to say.